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2005-03-27T21:37:00.000+08:00

WeLl.. ermx.. i dunnoe how to start... wif a HEY.. or a SIGH.. wateva it is.. i'm currently in NYJC... trying hard to fit in.. haf skool tmr... stuffs like dat.. altho my hearts pretty much somewhere else.. had this function at my aunts.. now back at home trying to register fer my subject combi.. still cant log in.. i dunnoe how or why... wateva the case is.. gonna stay at nanyang fer the next 2 years.. need a break in btw to ease my mind somehow.. twice in three months is not a gud thing.. so fer the second tym this year.. i'll say this.. i hate life and i fucking hate falling fer anyone.. this sucks...!! seriusly.. well.. haf nothing to talk abt.. dun feel too gud abt everything... freaking pissed wif everything arrd me... so dun provoke me or i might juz explode.. or mebbe u shud so i wun be alive... lemme be the first to die.. of a broken heart... emo freako.. fuck fuck.. i;m no emo shit.. but i feel emo now that u're gone.. i'm too late i knoe.. but u can still give me a chance.. cant u...?? sigh.. u read my frenster.. u saw my pics.. but i;m not sure if u read my blog.. sigh.. i'll read urs everyday... i'll be present but at the same tym.. not in the way.. u take care.. haf fun.. and i wish u all the best.. so long...

2005-03-22T13:43:00.000+08:00

itx been a month now since i last blogged in.. sigh.. been busy lately.. thinking abt stuff.. so many things happened in juz one short month.. got back O level results.. satisfactory.. a lil shocking.. kinda feel gud abt it.. ouh well.. then came NCC camps.. kewl i tell ya.. i had fun.. but the thing is.. a few people got possesed.. which was a lil too over-exciting i must say.. as always.. i'm the guinea pig.. the guy hu dies first.. sigh.. wahahakx.. well anyway.. i kept my kewl.. altho u can see my face.. was as pale as a white sheet.. and i was conversing to the THING.. gosh.. spooky.. ouh well.. ermx.. then came the chalet.. called fida.. asked her whether she was comin but she was at johor or something.. yar.. decided to call her afta the hundreds of unreplied smses i sent her.. yup.. went to the chalet.. had a share of laughs and a lil emo moments fer some.. but overall it was kewl.. altho most of us knocked out onli afta 5 am.. wahahakx.. merepek sakx.. well.. been feelin bad lately.. especially fer the pass few days... thing is.. i was looking ferward to going out wif this gal.. the very same gal hu said that she'd go out wif me.. the very same gal hu said that if she was single she'd be more than glad to go out wif me.. and when she was sick and felt like dying she said she wun die.. not until she go out wif me.. and all the sweet things she said to me.. when i liked someone else.. that someone dissed me.. and fida was there.. neutral but present.. she said that i'd be the first guy she'd go out wif if she was single.. sigh.. now.. she got a new guy.. a green beret.. and as always.. i was the last to knoe.. sigh.. this is so hurting.. i was there when she was feeling sucky abt her guy.. and i rushed to get her chocs on vdae since her guy cudnt care less abt her.. he was busy wif soccer or wateva.. i was late fer class fer that.. then abt a week ago.. she dissapeared.. she didnt reply to my smses.. stuffs like dat.. and the next thing i noe.. i lost to a green beret... well.. my green beret has been in the drawer fer oh so long.. and i swear by the end of june.. it shall be up on my head.. proudly.. i shall sign up fer the 49th intake.. i shall get my pride back.. my green beret shall be my evidence.. evidence that i stand tall.. and i haf not lost... this is my promise to the world.. but it depends on the 49th intake to take me in.. fer i shall make it proud...

2005-02-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

Ay...!! wahahakx.. ermx.. ouhkie i'm reli not sure why i;ve been having moodswings lately.. probably becuz of my period.. haix.. wahahakx... i'm feeling fabulous today.. the day b4 and the day b4.. wahahakx.. well.. on the 19th.. i went to chingay.. yar.. kinda kewl.. wif han and sarip.. went to like far east to get something.. then we sorta headed fer lido to eat..bumped into yani wif her mom and lil bro.. wen up to lido to get myself a drink and some food.. wahahakx.. so yar.. we chilled there fer a while... woohoo.. had a blast.. cant ferget the riot manx.. wahahakx.. and the RIOT BUS...!! wahahakx.. had great laughs dudes.. wahahakx.. yup2... and afta that we wanted to head home cuz we sorta like promised to go home wif hazlin.. so yar.. and we were walking and stuff.. and we realised we cudnt cross to the other side where the mrt is.. wahahakx.. and we continued walking till oh so far.. wahahakx.. visited hitomi at work.. she was busy.. like duhx.. orchard building wat.. but she managed to get us a drink.. ermx.. two drinks actuali.. oh wait.. two venti drinks..!! wahahakx.. yar... we had too much coffee that night.. had a blast.. met hazlin and went back home.. yup2.. ermx.. yesterday was kinda boring.. but heck.. a gud rest i muz say.. today started work at 12.. ended like 8.. gonna get free movies soon.. wahahakx.. woohoo.. ouh well.. was extended cuz ermx.. i was covering fer a fren.. so yar.. wahahakx.. had a blast... had too much coffee tho.. i feel extremely giddy.. as in i had this huge2 headache... i got on the wrong side of the train.. as in i headed fer marina.. unintentionally.. god.. i felt so dumb.. when i was walking home.. i saw this old couple.. they were so loving.. i was touched.. and the moon was all alone.. almost all the stars were gone... yup.. sigh.. ouh yar.. there was this funeral near my block.. i was passing by.. wif my big bag.. and they were doin the ritual stuff.. and they were like staring at me.. fer no reason.. gosh.. it was freaky.. wahahakx.. gonna catch white noise soon.. gonna scare the testicles out of me.. wahahakx.. ermx.. suddenly had this flu thing.. kinda irritated by it right now.. sigh... think i'm falling sick or something.. hope i;m gonna be fine soon.. abt the previous entry.. juz take it that i was on the bad side of my moodswing.. cant blame me lahx.. the periods pissing me off.. wahahakx.. riiiiight.. ouh well.. thats it fer now.. shud be able to blog tmr since i wun be working on wednesday.. gotta do some stuff tho.. ouh well.. gonna go shopping soon.. fer some stuff.. results ard the corner.. and i;m freaking nervous.. ouh yar. i havent decided where to go or wat to do.. so yar.. its gonna be fun..!! wahahahakx.. right.. ouhkie doke.. haf fun.,. enjoy ur day.. juz call me when ur free... tara*

2005-02-19T11:01:00.000+08:00

ArGgX... I'm gonna explode.. i wanna shout.. i wanna freaking pull my brain out and run it down.. i wanna pull my heart out.. paint it blue.. and leave it be.. arggx.. truth is.. i dunno why i feel this wae.. or if i'm even supposed to feel this certain way.. but heck i dun care anymore.. if this is my last entry.. i bid so long to those hu cared.. and fer those hu didnt.. i thot i was well over it.. but i dreamt abt it last nite.. and i cant stop thinkin of it todae.. gosh.. someone or something from my dreams got me to the truth.. and i was moved to check it out.. to actuali find out wats reli happening.. it wasnt nice.. wasnt pleasant at all.. come to think of it.. the dream was kewler than how i felt.. sigh.. i'm not gonna sleep tonight.. cuz i'm afraif i might dream abt it again.. gonna try to go sleepless fer a few nights.. cuz i seriusly wudnt wanna dream again.. why am i feelin like this.. i was feeling ouhkie yesterday and the day b4.. the day b4 that.. and it goes on.. but.. why..? why muz that dream reveal this hurtful truth.. gosh.. i feel used.. i feel useless.. helpless.. if i die someday.. tell her everyday that there was once a kid hu liked her.. and he left not onli a box of sorrow.. but a book filled wif his life stories.. i shall end it here.. hope there'll be a next tym.. so long.. -zid

2005-02-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Ay...!! wahahakx.. ermx.. been away fer oh so long.. kinda miss this shit.. oh wellx.. juz came back from town.. went wif han and rul.. was there to do my availability shit.. then met jade.. so yar.. she joined us... oh yar.. met up wif hitomi at orchard buliding b4 we went to get the stuffs.. she was like so damn enthu wif work... sigh..? wahahakx.. gila.. merepek..!! oh well.. shes like so damn lazy to go to far east.. pemalas.. so we went ahead.. yar.. han got an anti-flag shirt.. and then we went to lido starbuckx.. everyone was there.. and then... we headed to far east again.. to eat..!! wahahakx.. gosh.. thats the farney part.. we went to magic wok.. was like.. oughkie lahx.. kinda formal.. but heck.. me and farhan knew wat we wanted.. and khairul chose chicken.. gosh.. wahahakx.. he had to use hands fer that.. not a smart move dude.. but heck.. the chicken was delish..!! whahakx..then we were like laughing and stuff.. the way he ate was like barbaric.. wahahakx.. ahx.. we had fun.. then we sorta like went to zinc.. and i like so this kewl bag.. i mean i;ve been eyeing it fer awhile now.. but havent had the chance to buy it.. juz now.. went there.. kinda had my second look.. and jade was like.. buy ahx zid.. then i was like.. i will when i haf the money.. wahahakx.. she wanted to get it fer me as an advanced bdae prezzie.. sweet rite.. whahakx.. but i do haf money.. so i paid fer it.. wahahakx.. sheesh... jade thanx alright.. wahahakx.. 3rmx.. then we sorta like took the mrt to marina.. i mean.. we were bored dammit..!! wahahakx.. thats it ahx.. ermx.. ouhkie.. recall..!! went to meet yani on the night of the 15th.. morn of the 16th.. wahahakx... it was one am.. got back from work.. passed her some pastries.. and i was off.. so yar.. still editing her blog.. adding stuffs.. kinda having fun.. i enjoy doing bloggy stuffs.. i think.. wahahakx.. get a lyf zid.. ermx.. feeling hyper lately.. hitomi was like.. zid chill..!! wahahakx.. hey.. wahahakx.. cant help it lahx.. wahahakx.. so yar.. ermx.. hitomi.. i;ve been there and done that.. juz chill ouhkie.. we'll go out fer coffee sometym.. we;ll talk ouhkie..? juz chill...!!! its gonna be fine... be hapi and be free...!! lifes too short to worry ouhkie. ouh yar.. i didnt go fer my singapore malay orchestra auditions todae.. kinda like regretting it now.. sigh.. but heck.. there'll be another chance.. hopefully.. wahahakx.. ouhkie doke.. hafta buzz.. see ya.. take care.. so long and gud nyte..!!

2005-02-14T14:33:00.000+08:00

WaHaHaKx.. its Valentines day dammit...!! wahahakx.. woohoo.. ouhkie doke.. its gonna be a long day i tell ya.. wahahakx.. well was chilling wif my partners. murni and abdullah.. then murni was like.. wats wif valentines day.. do u knoe that mr valentine was this poor business guy in the 18th century hu wasnt reli good at sales and stuff.. and he came up wif the stupid idea of a valentiens day a day to be loved out of the whole bloody year... so that he can sell his chocs and flowers.. and the news spread and stuff.. like people juz go gaga.. wahahakx.. and so people still celebrate the stupid tradition.. sheesh.. wahahakx.. oh well.. might as well.. wahahakx.. ermx.. well went to work last nite.. like i was doing closing.. kinda kewl.. wif hambali.. wahahakx.. rock on.. wahahakx.. there was like plenty of couples smooching and hugging and chocs bears and flowers everywhere.. i was like.. hey.. wahahakx. i'm dateless here. hello..!! wahahakx.. came back pretty late.. went online.. chatted wif like soo many people.. chatted wif azura.. farhan.. hash.. ermx.. i cant recall.. gosh.. oh yar.. and yani.. thats it.. wahahakx.. stayed up till like 4 or so.. wahahakx.. kinda kewl ahx.. like.. woohoo.. too much caffeine... wahahakx.. i've got no date fer valentine.. juz my apron and stuff. wahahakx.. work zid work.. wahahakx.. oh well.. going out fer work soon.. i may haf something to share tonite.. so yar.. wahahakx.. juz wait fer my call eveyone.. wahahakx.. ermx.. helped yani wif her blog.. its done and up.. not as nice as it used to.. but heck.. hope she likes it... ouhkie doke.. i hafta chill b4 i go bonkers.. see ya.. hapi vdae...!! woohoo.. wahahakx.. damn mr valentine..!! wahahakx.. ouhkie doke.. till next tym kiddos.. whaahakx. tara*

2005-02-12T01:20:00.000+08:00

ArgGx.. I'm soo gonna miss my starbucks class partners... wahahakx.. i'm gonna miss hitomi mel ismail arief shafiq mohaizad shidah vanessa tiffany andy and not fergetting a new fren zack.. gosh.. its been the best days of my lifes.. and it ends today.. gee.. kinda sad manx.. i'm so gonna miss the laughs we had.. the tyms we shared.. the dinners.. the late lunches.. the kewl chills.. the coffee we had.. gee... i ferget all my probs when i;m ard u guys.. sigh.. been kewl nowing every single one of u.. and i reli dun mind going fer a second round of classes wif u peeps.. havoc..!! wahahakx.. we're probably like the craziest wackiest batch at trg centre.. wahahakx.. woohoo.. lasting impressions.. ermx.. well.. sorta planned to go fer dinner today.. but me and tengku was late.. so we didnt.. and we sorta like bought our dinner during break.. so it wasnt so bad.. ermx.. hitomi...! u knoe wat u did hurt us all.. so please2 dun ever do it again alright... u promised.. u betta hold on tight.. if ur tempted.. give me a call.. u promised me ouhkie.. and i'm freaking gonna save the msg.. well.. we're kinda dissapointed ahx.. but heck.. u promised.. juz dun do this ever again.. cuz i'm gonna be sooo pissed... u hear me.. we care.. and u knoe it.. ermx.. well.. to mel.. ermx.. ur like the craziest person i knoe.. ur like a dancing freak..!! wahahakx.. and ur kewl i tell ya... knoe how u feel.. noe how bad it is when it bites.. i knoe how shitty it felt when they dun appreciate.. but heck.. move on ouhkie.. u still haf us... chill... shafiq... forever wif his joke.. bapak kau batman ler.. pergedil hangus.. pakcik kau pirate.. wahahakx.. ouhkie.. he's fuck funny i tell ya.. we haf tengku.. known him fer a while now.. so.. wahahakx.. nothing much to say.. arief.. band guy.. drummer.. universal.. kewl guy... awesome style.. gonna freaking miss ur laugh.. ermx.. tiff and vanessa.. u rock..!! ismail and his bike.. gosh.. i love his bike.. its freaking green..!! wahahakx.. Andy bugis guy... wahahakx.. he's neutral.. he rocks big tym.. gud luck fer everything.. shidah.. very older sister like... wahahakx.. kinda look at her like.. ermx. my sister.. altho i onli talked to her once.. wahahakx.. sh's nice i tell ya.. wahahakx.. did i miss anyone..?? wahahakx.. i'm gonna miss u and u and u and everyone else.. thanks t my lido partners.. taught me well.. ur the kewlest bunch.. and i reli do feel young.. wahahakx.. been freaking keeping myself busy.. i'm moving on pretty well.. its gud reli.. i mean.. move on zid.. get a life.. i am... woohoo.. yup2.. altho.. sometyms.. some memories do flash by.. but heck.. tears are no longer silent droplets of sadness and frustrations.. but are droplets of joy and a pinch of hurt memories.. but heck.. i've got a new life. a new start.. a better one.. and i;m gonna live my life my way.. and u cant stop me..!! no no.. u cant..!! wahahakx.. all i want to do now is shout out and thank god fer the strength that he granted me.. the strength to face it on my own.. i may not haf won this war.. but i fought it well.. and i knoe.. that life still goes on even if i'm a prisoner of my own feelings.. i shall end this here.. will blog again tmr.. i think.. so enjoy the rest of the night.. so long and gud nyte.. it is always possible to do something when u knoe someone cares.. i do.. and u knoe it.. we all do.. so.. i reli hope u feel this... gudnyte..

2005-02-06T14:42:00.000+08:00

WaHaHakx.. woohoo.. well seriusly.. i'm fuck bored rite now.. but ermx.. i kinda dun wanna go out today.. like.. i reli want a rest... its been reli tiring fer me.. like.. i dun spend much tym at home anymore.. hardly haf tym fer my frens lately.. but hatfa juz keep myself busy.. and i hafta get a life.. wahahakx.. hmmmx.. wahahakx.. was out yesterday.. went to bugis wif hitomi to meet up wif rasul.. the store manager there.. we sorta like trained there fer fun.. wahahakx.. it was kinda kewl.. but i rmb lunch ouhkie.. hitomi was soo soo excited and thrilled abt the job.. she forgot all abt lunch.. so i had to like wait till she cools off.. wahahak.. sheesh.. ermx.. faisal, zila and hazlin was there.. fer wat i dunno.. wahahakx.. but they were there.. sheesh.. then we went to lido to eat our lunch.. wahahakx.. at ard 5 pm.. wahahakx.. hitomi's fault.. wahahakx.. ermx.. sent them back.. was lik reluntant to go to work.. but heck.. it was damn fun.. i was exhausted tho.. afta the trg at bugis.. wahahakx. rasul got us a mug and voucher.. kewl aite.. awesome.. then it was work work work.. wahahakx.. and chatting wif partners and stuff.. on my way back.. ermx.. i was kinda like listening to hoobastank.. the reason.. i mean.. its an old song ahx.. but i mean.. i was juz bored ahx.. wahahakx.. so i was like listening and as i listen.. i realise that.. i cud actuallu relate to the song.. i mean seriusly. shesh.. oh well.. been a while since i played that song.. took me a while to realise it.. wahahakx.. get a lyf zid.. sheesh.. i;m reli not perfect.. and she is my every reason.. oh well.. she wun understand.. ermx.. i dun haf much to say.. notthat i;m down.. juz out of juice.. and a lil dissapointe but heck hu cares... so heres the lyrics to my current top listed songs on MyEFFiNgIpoD.. ermx.. and i;ll put the song up soon.. i htink... whahaakx.. woohoo.. i miss u peeps.. and u too..

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

wahahakx. crappy.. but heck.. i like the song ouhkie.. very yi han.. like myself.. sheesh.. i reli wish i cud turn back tym.. sigh.. but wat to do.. still hafta get myself a life.. hmmx... wahahakx.. zid misses u and u and u and everyone else.. wahahakx.. ouhkie dokie.. till next tym kiddo.. wahahakx..

2005-01-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

WaHahaKx.. its been a while since i blogged wif laughter.. wahahakx.. shrugs.. well.. juz got back from.. ermx.. lido.. store meeting.. yay.. my first store meeting.. so kewl.. nice2 people.. so welcuming.. felt out of place at first.. but they were a frenly bunch.. and farney too.. wahahakx.. ermx.. there was ismail.. farah.. shahrome.. hash.. yanti.. and royston.. so kewl.. wahahakx.. they offered me a drink.. and i was like.. ermx.. anything.. so yar.. and they gave me this coffee.. wahahakx.. not so nice ahx.. sheesh.. welcuming joke i guess.. then farah was like.. no lah2.. wahahakx.. get u new one.. yar.. she got me a caramel frap.. so nice.. gosh.. i;m loving it.. whaahakx.. ermx.. then we went from lido starbux to liat towers starbux.. where all the kewl gals are.. wahahakx..kk.. not suprising ahx.. that my partners each haf got a crush on at least one of the gals working at LT starbux.. wahahakx.. sheesh.. but i wun.. fer a while at least.. wahahakx.. kinda cute lahx how my partners actuali went to get their chances and stuff.. got sooo much to learn from them.. wahahakx.. ermx.. then it was back home.. went to get myself dinner and was kinda dissapointed wif the food ahx.. but fuck care.. then on my way back.. there was this malay couple.. ermx.. very trendy and hip ahx.. i was like.. aaawwww.. so touching.. and then i realised something cute.. the gal was like.. " awak tu untuk kita nyer bapak lahx awak.." wahahakx.. kinda weird but very cute sakx.. wahahakx.. and they're like in their 20s.. wahahakx..oh well.. imagine i;m working on vdae.. trying to look okie.. then a couple comes in and say.. ermx... " awak nak minum aper..? awak2.. kita tanya nie..." sheesh.. and i;m not supposed to laugh.. so i;d be smiling like anything.. wahahakx.. oh well.. that'll be cute fer a change.. wahahakx.. so far.. i;m loving my classes my partners and everyone else.. wahahakx.. woohoo.. and i'm feeling betta.. or great at least.. oh yar.. todae.. was a lil emo ahx.. but fer a while.. wahahakx.. was at LTs starbuckx.. and ermx.. was drinking my coffee when i thot of her ahx.. so i was like searching fer her pic ahx.. cudnt find any.. wahahakx.. so it was like.. going emo losing my brain.. i forgot i deleted all her pics.. wahahakx.. sheesh.. oh well.. in the process.. slowly ahx.. wahahakx.. forgot lahx.. wahahakx.. sheesh.. paiseh to the fuck.. ph yar.. was listening to MCR thank you fer the venom.. wahahakx.. awesome guitar riffs.. so kewl.. arggx.. so i;ll say.. Thank u fer the venom...!! and the poison and everything else.. lonely christmas.. solo valentine.. wahahakx.. not reli solo lahx.. working valentine.. wahahakx.. sheesh.. okie2.. i;ll end it here.. feeling hyper ahx.. so i;ll go pee.. wahahakx.. ssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... wee.. weee.. wahahakx.. kk.. till next tym.. i love u dears.. all four of u.. wahahakx.. keep me company all the tym.. and u sound soo perfect.. sigh.. i wish u were a gal.. wahahakx.. k now it sounds as if i;m gay.. wahahakx.. but nahx.. referring to my guitars.. selling some awae.. so yar.. wahahakx.. hmmmx.... wanna trade darlings.. wahahakx.. sheesh.. okie2 i'll end here... empty promises*

2005-01-27T18:08:00.000+08:00

ermx.. i;ve come up wif a final decision.. i;m never gonna fall fer any other gal anymore in my younghood.. and i will fuck hate myself fer all that i haf done.. if i ever fall fer any other gal.. slap me in the face.. kick me in the shin.. and pinch me on my arm.. kill me if u want.. i will not charge u... this is my final decision.. fer the rest of my younghood... i will not ferget her.. or all thats happened.. it stops here... altho nothing has begun.. never gonna fall fer any other gal.. anymore.. in my younghood.. i dun fall fer any gal any other day.. and when i do.. this happens.. fun aint it.. jolly.. once bitten twice shy.. if ur reading this.. it hurts fuck bad.. and u had ur laugh.. thanx fer everything.. u thot me how much it hurts.. thanx..

2005-01-27T01:37:00.000+08:00

SiGh.. arggx.. wat a start.. ermx.. k.. seriusly.. i wrote an entry last night.. but i was dumb enuf to restart the comp b4 publishing the entry.. arggx.. so now i'm stupid dumb slow pathetic... shrugs.. i dunno.. well.. ermx.. yesterday.. i was out somewhere.. i dunno.. i forgot.. sheesh.. oh well.. i juz came back from barista trg at tanjong pagar.. so yar.. had a blast.. keeping myself occupied.. got to knoe a few partners.. ermx.. a few to name.. mel. hitomi. shafiq. is.. shidah.. ermx.. i dunno.. like me and tengku was in the same class.. crappy krew.. wahahakx.. oh well.. ermx.. well.. ermx.. oh yar.. was wif hash a few days ago.. i think its yesterdae.. wahahakx.. so i chilled wif his frens.. my to-be-partners.. so yar.. sorta fun bunch.. crazy2 people.. kinda kewl that i'm gonna work wif the crew ahx.. wahahakx.. oh well.. ermx.. yesterday.. well.. it was rather emo fer me.. sigh.. arggx.. dun wanna talk abt it here.. people might read... sheesh.. fer all that i;ve done.. and i;ve not.. all that i sacrificed.. all that sleep i missed becuz i kept thinking of stuff.. all that precious tym i set aside.. goes greatly unappreciated.. sheesh.. fun aint it.. oh well.. i wish i cud run from this reality.. wud that be possible if i slit my arm.. wud it help if i crack my head constantlu banging on the wall.. wud it do me gud by bleaching my hair so dat it cud clean all those memories in my head.. wud it help if i closed my eyes and hope to die.. sheesh.. i may not be ur dream guy.. but u knoe that ur my dream gal.. guess it'll stay there... in my dreams.. sheesh.. thats as far as it can go yar.. hmmx.. well.. guess wat.. i told my boss.. i didnt mind working on valentines day.. fer a simple reason.. becuz it doesnt mean anything.. anymore.. and he sorta granted my wish.. so yar.. i;m working on vdae.. dunno if its a gud thing.. but yar.. i;ll be working.. but it starts at 6pm.. so i haf sometym alone.. probably i'd sit somewhere reflecting on wateva i've said and done wrong.. over a cup of columbia.. which tastes bitter black smooth but still.. bitter.. yar.. thats probably how i feel right now.. and probably later on vdae.. bitter.. sigh.. it wud be contradicting if i said i feel happy but i;m tearing.. so yar.. i;m fuck tearing.. oh yar.. haz and all.. peeps.. juz ferget abt wateva i;m going thru alright.. i mean.. its no use.. things will never change no matter how hard u try.. so juz ferget abt my probs.. am aware that u haf ur probs too.. so dun be too bothered by my senseless blabberingx.. i learned one thing today.. no matter how weird kewl or complicated the name of a certain black coffee is.. well.. its always black and bitter.. no matter how nice or kewl ur dream gal is.. it still tastes black and bitter deep in ur heart.. cuz it hurts.. love is like a black coffee.. u taste wat u smell.. bitter.. a quote from the rejects.. gals are a bunch of sadistic pirates hu rob guys of their hearts.. kinda true actuali.. so this to the rejects and u.. i may not be ur valentine.. but i will always be.. ur reject.. till then.. keep faking the smiles..

2005-01-14T17:40:00.000+08:00

SheEsh... its been ages since i last blogged.. not that i dun want to.. juz that i dun feel like it.. oh well.. ermx.. todaes.. the 14th of jan.. was out wif zila and yani.. to an interview which turned out to be extremely short.. and so we left fer town to look fer jobs there.. ermx. .we sorta. i mean i sorta applied fer a waiter job at Orchard cafe.. so yar.. sheesh.. then we were at far east and everything.. people paying fer food wif coins.. wahahakx.. sheesh.. oh well.. yesterdae was fun-er.. ermx.. yesterday was guys day out.. ermx.. well.. rejects day out to be exact.. yesterdae was the 13th.. so its the rejects day on the 13th of every month.. so yar.. to the rejects.. ermx.. we went to pool and we did try to ask fer jobs at places.. right.. wahahakx. i dunno.. we jus had fun spending tym wif one another altho we had to wait like 1 hour b4 farhan reaches the meeting point.. sheesh.. i bought myself a cap cuz seriusly i'm starting to hate my hair alot.. sheesh.. got myself this wrist thingy which i find kewl.. sheesh.. duhx.. thats why i bought it.. i'm lame.. been feeling extremely stressed lately.. not juz wif the fact that i;m jobless.. but wif other things like my frens not sharing their problems and things like dat.. and some juz haf problems i cant reli solve making me feel extremely bad.. sheesh.. oh yar.. farhan hates it when i start sheesh-ing.. hahakx.. so does zila i think.. but you'll see me sheesh-ing very often.. wahahakx.. oh yar.. i;ve been eating alot recently.. like i haf lunch.. followed by late dinner.. then at night i eat maggieS cuz i cant sleep when i;m hungry.. its like a routine now that i;m awefully stressed.. oh well.. i dunno.. i feel extremely weak and agitated.. sheesh.. now.. i dunno.. arggx.. falling sick i fink.. sheesh.. i'll blog again tonite.. if i haf the tym.. till then.. ur reject*

2005-01-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

ErMz.. pretty aware that this site is... ermx.. it is rotting in one wae or another.. ermx. surprisingly the tag-board is wae active.. and i'm extremely pleased that people wud tag.. wahahakx.. never thot so many people cared.. wahahakx.. ermx.. k.. juz got back from the countdown pit.. had a blast.. i think.. was wif syarif fauzi khairul haz faizal and everyone else i think.. ermx.. tarmizi.. ermx.. did i spell that right...?? oh well.. he's a great2 guy and lyzma.. i am extremely hapi fer u... ermx.. SOME people kept hogging on my fone.. cuz of the free incomin.. i dun reli mind.. wahahakx.. but... ermx.. found my fone dead dis morning.. wahahakx.. ermx.. had lotsa tym to think over things... and well.. i;ve not came up wif a decision... wahahakx.. current situation is.. ermx.. well.. she'll hate me more if i ermx.. try harder.. but if i dun.. i;m giving up.. soo... i dunno... wahahakx.. fer the tym bein.. ermx.. i;m betta off trying to focus myself wif a few things... i;m planning a trip to phuket.. to help out there.. to help the needy... and to do wateva possible... ermx.. soo.. if i live long enuf.. i'd reli lurv to go there.. to juz do wat i've been wanting to all these years.. so yar.. been doing lotsa thinking... seriusly.. i dun mind dying there.. i mean.. not that i want to.. but... if i ever perish.. i'd die in honour... not that i want to either.. juz that once in my lifetym.. i'd like to do something right fer once... its like.. i never get anything right.. eventho i'm close.. ermx.. back to my.. ermx.. current major prob.. half of me saes that i shud give up.. the other half wants me to keep trying.. becuz.. i hafta to end wat i started.. so... ermx.. at one particular part during the whole bloody countdown thing.. i was ermx.. all alone.. wahahakx.. not that i;m sad.. juz that i;m confused and everything.. and i;m not sure where i'm supposed to head.. or supposed to go.... 2005... a new year.. seriusly.. i;ve got nothing to look ferward to this year.. at least fer now.. plans... get my results.. go to where ever i qualify to.. finish it... go to bloody NS.. then.. juz decide wat i wanna do then.. i dunnoe.. its like.. i;m not sure wat lyf wud be or wat the future holds fer me... i dunno.. if i wanna even be there.. in the future.. the past is painful enuf yar.. sigh.. to syarif.. the chat we had abt.. well.. abt.. everything.. it made me feel betta.. and we did had a gud laugh over something.. wahahakx.. remember..??? and oh yar.. me u me u.. on my fone ahz.. best right..?? wahahakx.. i dun mind..ermx.. fauzi... had a blast on 1st jan waiting fer first light.. it was hilarious.. khairul.. thanx fer understanding and ermx.. spending tym wif me... haz.. and faisal.. ermx.. juz haf fun.. wahahakx.. and juz forget wateva crap me and fauzi crapped abt during firs light.. we were crapping.. as usual.. Lyzma and Tarmizie.. wahahakx.. ermx.. great couple... u peeps shud stay yar.. ermx.. amin ermy saleha and cuzin.. salehah.. and eunos and everyone else.. u people added spice to the whole damn thing yar.. and seriusly.. ermx.. my cough is getting from bad to worst.. and seriusly.. not sure if its reli serius.. so yar.. hopefully its not.. losing my voice.. wahahakx.. ermx.. i juz feel betta alright.. and oh yar.. hasyim... u werent there.. but fer all that u did.. i thank u dear mate.. u're the bestest pal i knoe... wahahakx.. will write another entry afta i get some sleep.. wahahakx.. feeling doozy and everything.. wahahakx.. see ya... real soon...

2004-12-22T07:41:00.000+08:00

never thot it'd hurt that bad.. probably becuz i;m new to this fuck.. i dunno.. it hurts fuck bad.. arggz.. sigh.. well found a job.. as... marketin agent.. sorta like comission basis but hu cares.. ermz.. hafta wear like so damn smart wif tie and everything to werk.. so yar.. ermz.. well.. i was out wif hazlin and khairul last nyte.. helped her mum wif some computer stuff.. and i sorta smsed HER.. hazlin smsed HER too.. sigh.. and guess wat... she was so damn harsh... towards me i mean.. meeting up wif HER this thurs.. well thats tmr i think.. ermz... yar.. not sre its a gud thing... but wateva it is.. i;m gonna show a strong front.. ermz.. not gonna show i;m sad or wateva ahz... juz gonna look cheerful and bubbly and wateva.. so yar.. ermz.. i dunno.. dun even haf the mood to type anytin.. juz gonna say that i;m skipping work todae cuz i dun feel quite right.. and i;m going fer a job interview some place else.. fer fun.. and my other plan wud be to chill at esplanade but that is if i haf tym.. i dunno.. then on thurs i hafta go to werk.. so i hafta meet her someplace.. gonna show that i'm glad altho i feel so devastated on the inside.. but hu reli cares anywae.. i;ve lived 16 years of my pathetic life trying to be somebody.. i;ve never achieved anything special in my life.. wat makes me think i can ever convince her that i';m good enuf.. this guy she likes.. i dunno hu the hell he is.. but he's one hell of a guy i think.. she likes him.. but if he ever diss her.. i;m gonna eff my business tie up his sorry ass.. and if he's a jerk.. well.. i wanna be a jerk too.. so yar.. cuz i want her to like me.. not gonna force her to.. juz want things to work out my wae fer once.. juz this once god.. arggz... well.. hu reli cares wat i sae ard here.. cuz no ones gonna read it.. so i;m like telling myself once that i haf a pathetic life.. and that my business tie is filled wif shit crap i dunno wat fuck and i;m not gonna wat it wud be.. i'm a pain in the ass... jerk.. bastard.. whore.. slut.. me.. fuck.. ihatemyself.. and i prefer not to be born.. dork.. i dunno.. read the dictionary... look fer anything bad.. thats me.. pathetic geek.. i am.. fuck... sarip.. if u're reading this.. ermz.. i knoe how u feel now.. and khairul if u fucking wanna knoe how i feel.. well.. it feels so fuck similar to urs.. and farhan if u wanna knoe how it hurts.. juz the same as u when u were dissed and ignored.. and taufiq if u ever see this... i understand how much it hurts u when SHE dissed and avoided u.. and hazlin if u're reading this.. well.. i can onli sigh... azila if u're reading this.. well... i knoe how u felt when u broke down adn cried... nad if u're reading this.. see my life ruin before ur very eyes... lydia if u ever visit this dead thing.. it hurts fuck bad sis and u were right.. once again.. and yani if u ever come across this bloody hell of a creepy place.. i like u and i;m not gonna stop at that.. and u cant stop me.. but i;m not forcing u to wateva.. ur better off with that guy anywae.. so yar.. doesnt even matter whether u visit this fuck place or not.. juz haf fun.. congratulate that guy on my behalf.. ermz.. so i guess thats another dae of my pathetic saddist crappy horny wateva life i;ve got.. and i;m not sure there's much of it left.. until next tym.. me..

2004-12-11T10:41:00.000+08:00

ErMz.. juz got back from Gems advisor and Leaders retreat at Ubin.. it was soo damn fun.. didnt get to sleep the whole night.. wahahakz.. so yar.. feeling doozy and cranky.. haf a performance tonight.. so that aint a gud thing.. ermz.. well.. the tyms spent there. was great... probably becuz she was there.. i dunno.. cant hide dis any longer.. sigh... it hurts alright... well seriusly i feel sad.. and love.. hurts so fucking bad.. currently i aint sure how i feel... not sure if i shud be feeling a certain wae.. i sorta spent sometym wif her at the resort... but i wasnt alone.. so ya... and we sorta like joked laughed... and crap ard about being horny and stuff.. and she kept hiding he specs knowing that we'd steal it.. wahahakz.. smart sia.. and she sorta asked me hu i dedicated the song to during the PROM.. i juz ERMz al the wae... wahahakz.. dunno.. was so damn afraid sia.. then at night i sorta sat beside her.. nothing special or different but i dunno.. felt close... as frens i think.. very nice.. homy... and u hafta see her face when she sleeps.. so damn effing cute.. arggz.. wahhaakz.. i'm not sure if this is love.. but i knoe i like her.. i do.. seriusly.. i dun care anymore.. i knoe many people alredi am aware of that... so ya.. and... she is.. THAT SPECIAL GAL HU AINT HERE TONIGHT.. dat i mentioned during my last minute performance fer PROM nite.. wahhaz... confession... i dunno.. her bdae is ard the corner.. and i;ve not bought her anything yet.. so i;m like deciding whether i shud buy her something nice but doesnt last long.. or something nice and she can wear it.. hmmz.. or buy her something she can hug.. i dunno.. during the retreat i sorta had sometym alone.. so i sorta had the tym to write a song.. a song sorta making me look as if i wanted to be supreman.. which was true.. i was trying so hard to not fall asleep.. and i;m sorta like the only one hu stayed awae thruout... so yar.. superman.. right.. its abt a passing crush which sorta grew to something deep.. and superman.. wif undies and all..and abt how love hurts... and relationships gone bad... i dedicate this entry to PUG JELLY fer coming up wif the song GIVE OR TAKE.. which was the sng i played fer PROM.. a great song.. and without it i wudnt be able to make the dedication.. so ya rock on.. and ermz.. i;ll rite another entry soon.. probably afta my performance tonight.. sigh... nd i reli want my prom pics.. if u haf any.. mail me alright.. urs truly... me..

2004-11-24T21:12:00.000+08:00

ErMz.. its been ages.. since i last updated dis blog.. haix.. well lotsa stuff happened recently.. and unexpected outcomes are the product of a moment folly.. and life's changed by a second of decision... hari raya... 14th nov.. probably something others look forward to every year.. me..?? it aint the same this year.. my grandma was not there when we took our customary family foto.. she wasnt there to smile at me and give me my green packet on the morning of hari raya... she wasnt there when i went looking for her to ask her to join us fer breakfast.. there was that empty silence.. that empty spot i could not quite fill.. haix.. went to her grave on second mornin of hari raya.. tried to put a strong front.. but burst out in tears the moment i realised that there lied the person that left.. leaving that empty spot i wanted to fill.. haix.. i walked awae wif a heavy heart.. wanting to stay.. haix.. then came the remainding papers fer O levels.. was unexpectedly difficult.. but three daes was like a passing wave.. sigh.. 23rd nov.. dae we wanted to go out fer the raya visitings.. wif lots of frens.. like 17 others.. enjoyed the first half then something unexpected had to happen.. was chattin up wif yani.. nothing special.. but someone thot i had oder intentions.. mebbe.. but on dat dae it was juz a casual chat.. similar to that of hazlin azila nadia and the rest of my closest frens.. but.. sigh.. i dunno.. probably it aint my birthrght to speak to yani.. mebbe i had to treat her differently from my oder frenz.. juz becuz one of my frens fancy her... mebbe.. mebbe its not right to talk to someone else's crush.. mbbe.. mebbe its sinful to befren someone i alredi knoe well.. mebbe.. i dunnoe.. yani and me did make it clear that if we go out we r JUZ frenz.. nohing more.. so if u think well.. it was juz a promise i had to fulfil.. and i asked others along so dat i can avoid misconceptions.. and the colour.. it was pure coincidental.. alright..?? so dun think i wanna spike anyone.. my frens knoe that wat i did wasnt wrong.. i think.. juz dat one guy had to feel bad sulky and stuff. i dun blame him.. arggz.. wateva it is.. its yesterdaes story.. having a flu and coughing so fcuk bad.. so yar.. probably cuz of the rain.. sigh.. losing my voice due to this mornings laughing and shouting and screaming and joking and stuff.. so yar.. so i've got a weak voice and a sore mood.. sigh.. so i'm gonna go take my medication and go to sleep.. so i'll end it here.. but i promise to be back alright... till next tym.. 24th nov..*

2004-09-29T10:05:00.000+08:00

HeyZ... the entry b4 this is not written by me.. the entry dated.. ermz.. not so sure.. think its the 23rd of sept.. so yar.. the entry IS NOT written by me.. someone is obviusly trying to spike me.. but nevertheless.. it is kinda true.. somehow someone go a hold of me password. changing blog soon.. yar... be back to update my new blog.. which i will publish here too.. kk.. buaiz...

2004-09-11T07:51:00.000+08:00

hEyZ... i knoe i knoe.. its been rotting.. ya ya.. and its full of webs everywhere.. well. i'm back fer now... well seriusly i've been terribly bz wif stuff.. lyk exams and all that crap in skool.. sitting fer prelims pretty soon... well.. thats the start of hell.. u knoe wat i mean.. well... recently i've been doing soo many things.. i dunno where to start... well.. lemme start wif well todae.. its AreTha's Bdae.. weehee.. and its also the sept11 anniversary.. well.. so to aretha... hapi bdae lil chick... oh wellz.. ermz.. was out last nite... went to the airport to send my lil cuzzy to paris.. kewl huhz.. fer one whole week.. arggz.. droolz... so i was out till quite late.. and was juz in tym to send aretha her bdae wishes.. wahahakz... i slept about 1 plus... onli to find myself not able to sleep.. i dunno.. i woke up at 3 plus... andi cudnt sleep afta that.. so i sat on my bed... andtried to sleep while sitting... well i was bored.. ad alone.. haiz.. so i smsed a few people.. and i was expecting someone to reply.. dumb yar.. haiz.. thats me.. well seriusly i'm trying my very best to werk on my sciences.. if i wanna reach my goal.. i cant afford to get a B fer science.. haiz.. so yar.. cuz my eng sux.. so i hafta depend on the other few subjects ya.. pathetic.. recently.. lyk two daes ago me and fauzi played badminton... wahahaz.. it was lame... but kewl.. so it wasnt really something i expected.. i've never played badminton b4 and i'm never good at it.. so yar.. won here.. lost there.. blablabla.. afta that.. my legs ache.. as i speak... it still aches.. haiz.. i knoe i did something fun recently but i cudnt recall wat it is.. oh ya... i was out about a week ago.. no.. it was mondae.. no.. tuesdae.. argz.. i dunno.. well anyway iw as at malaysia... trying to ferget all tht hw thats waiting fer me at home.. well.. i ate so much i dint realise i was growing fat... so yar.. my sis bought lyk so many things.. while i onli bought this kewl wrist band and some book i lost.. this morn.. i wanted to do Amath.. but my calculator failed me once again.. realised that the batt is low.. haiz.. well i changed it quite recently... and now.. its flat... haiz.. thinking of getting myself a second calculator so that i'll be safe fer O levels yar.. wee... O levels.. well haf so many things to do afta O levels.. haf lyk one week of wateva holidae.. and i'm probably... going fer CLT course 48th intake... waahakz.. well that is if i feel lyk it.. juz that the 5 daes week thingy may disrupt CCA activities on sats.. and well.. if not fer the weekends.. i may not be free.. and i still hafta go fer skool.. so yar.. i dunno.. very very confusing... well i deeecided to form a new band... a funk alternative i dunno.. i mean we will try to play universal.. as in any song that we want.. not inclined to any genre watsoever.. so yar.. looking fer a qualified funk bassist.. if interested u can sms me or juz intro thru my taggy.. wahahakz.. hu'd visit this lame blog anyway.. well i felt lyk a puny jerk recently.. and almost got myself in trouble.. fiuh.. well dats over.. ermx.. well.. i;m getting myself an MP3.. again.. so yar.. a larger memory this tym... deecided to get an ipod 3rd Gen 15GB... which looks awesomely kewl and it is way thiner than creative zen touch.. so yar.. cant wait.. afta this.. i'll be broke fer a while... wahahakz.. so it will take me about 2 to 3 weeks b4 i can get aretha her bdae prezzie.. wahahakz.. so sad.. wateva i said above.. may sound lame or jerky to u.. esp if u read it real quick.. but it is my LIFE.. which i'd lyk to trade fer a newer one.. waahaahzk.. ermz.. wel people lets slack die and eat shit. whahaakz.. kk that was lame.. k people say this wif me... i hate yazid cuz he's a puny faggartly little bastardly jerkingly terribly kewl.. wahahakz.. kk thats fer now kids.. catch me live on my life everydae at skool or a second tele thru my webbies... enjoy wats left fer the holidaes... haf fun kids.. tara*

2004-08-06T20:49:00.000+08:00

HeYz... ermz.. well.. todaes the national dae celebration at skool... kinda the usual stuff.. ermz.. the whole of yldp juz stood up and lead the skool wif the community singing.. pretty unexpected.. well.. am very proud of each and everyone of u... rock onz.. well... had physics practical afta dat.. we sorta stayed till about 12... arggz... it was supposed to half dae... was supposed to be released from skool at 10.. arggz... we were robbe of our own holidae.. shuckx.. well.. i was out.. juz now.. alone.. cuz some of my peeps were bz wif stuff.. well.. i kept mum the whole dae todae.. not becuz i've got nothing to talk about.. juz that i felt dissapointed as well aas frustrated wif well someone.. ermz.. pissed... so yar.. well.. i got to knoe that this guy sorta thinks highly of himself.. haiz.. well.. afta about a year plus involvng myself wif music.. i realise that no one is betta than the other.. becuz different musicians haf different taste and touch... and they tend to play similar songs in different waes.. well.. i got to knoe this person hu thinks that he or she is betta than my other fren in something... well.. i sorta shut my trap since i found it ridiculous.. oh wellz.. i wudnt want to get close to jerks anyway.. ermz.. well talked to khairul about some revamping... to suit the current problem... ermz... more of situation... but yar... ermz... well i think i hafta copy my dictionary thick geog textbook four tyms if i dun reach the stated target of A2... as a punishmnt.. by the looks of it.. there's a high possibility of me copying the books more tyms than stated... oh wellz.. thats life fer u... never fair.. never meant to be... so little tym so much to do.. so many memories never to erase... so many words said... none wud haf been understood.. so many fairytales written.. but some remain untold... so many stars. but they may be sattelites oh some plane.. life's never rite.. certain things are never meant to be.. certain things are meant to be kept... untold... saddist*

2004-07-31T10:01:00.000+08:00

HeYz... ermz... haf not ben blogging fer quite sometym.. ermz.. been bz setting up the leaders blog... ermz.. and as u can see i changed my skin... wahahakz.. it may not be as nice... or it may look pretty similar to someones.. but yar.. i kinda like it.. weehee... oh wellz... it took me a while to get the leaders blog up... ermz.. it will take much longer to give everyone access to it.. ermz.. going out soon... gotta go fer CIP.. ermz.. gotta observe and stuff... thats wat mentors supposed to do... ermz... my blog is totally renovated so no trace of the old one is around.. ermz.. i found that popping error thing rathr irritating so i decided to not add it... ermz.. i'd lyk to thank a few people fer helping me wif stuff... like nadia fer helping me wif the background.. kewl.. and a few other people hu made this possible.. visiting the leaders blog is a must.. cuz it is totali awesome.. altho it looks a lil lyk mine.. well thats the onli thing i can do in two daes tym.. will be doing azura's blog soon.. but i'm totali runing ut of ideas... and i gtg help farhan modify his blog to fit more entries.. so i'm like totali bz.. but actually.. i'm not really good at this things in the bginning.. so yar... deecided to learn thru observation.. and intense reading of all the javascripts i can get hold of... manz.. so yar... ermz.. i think i found the books syaiful wanted so yar... feeling a lil relief.. ermz.. well i'll probably be catching another movie real soon.. its either brotherhood or alla enchanted... like kewl rite... manz.. ermz... dun haf pics todae... will be blogging real soon.. ermz.. as soon as i finish doing the rest of the blogs... arggz... and the stack kof homework i;ve got... haiz.. cant wait fer national dae... manz... cuz that'll be the tym i'll ease my mind... weehee... so people rock onz... see ya.. and visit my other blog at..... www.nss-leaders.blogspot.com... tara... smilez*

2004-07-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

HeYz.. feelinf extremely great todae... ermz.. well been out everydae fer the past few daes.. been extremely bz lately.. ermz... well.. i was at VCH on thurs fer the FoRte 3.. had loads of fun... ermz.. we were there and we practically knew almost everyone.. making it even kewler.. so we sorta hanged out... and stuff.. and the greatest part is.. we took pics of us like from city hall to marina and back to yishun.. non stop... and we kept changing places... like so many people stared at us... had a blast... bought lydia flowers... hope she likes it.. manz.. the VCH aint as nice as last years venue.. cuz i find this place rather small... ermz.. well owe azura a pic wif her... so yar... ermz... all the people looked great.. including teachers.. so yar.. kinda surprising to actually see some people hu i din expect to be there.. so yar... ermz.. we reported late fer skool the next dae.. we didnt really study on fri... cuz.. well no ones in the mood to... ermz.. yesterdae was the greatest dae... SPeEch daE... wee.. i was Guard Of Honour fer the first tym.. kinda kewl actully.. but we sorta had to go to camp amoy quee to collect rifles nd stuff 4 heading back to skool fer more rehearsals.. arggz.. the rehearsal was so damn long.. practised fer so many daes... but the actual parade lasted less den 5 mins.. arggz... and the rifle was so damn heavy my hands sorta had the cramps afta that...arggz.. ermz.. then i was back at my locker to take out something b4 heading up to the hall to collect my award.. wee.. first tym in 4 years... wahahakz.. had this voucher from skool for borders or something.. kewl.. so now i can buy books... or CDs... ermz.. so afta that we sorta went to the greatest place on earth.. the opening of jalan pendidikan... wahahakz.. kewl place.. cant actual imagine my face on the board... farney... ermz.. well the room was kinda okie.. so i guess i'll hang there fer quite sometym.. dinner was awesome... so i had someone to serve me aite.. kewl manz... woohoo... and shidah was so damn hungry.. poor thingy... had a blast unitl something went wrong.. dun feel lyk talking about it... arggz.. took lotsa fotos yesterdae... and i felt terribly sleepy last nite... altho i cud onli sleep at about 12 plus... arggz.. oh wellz.. will update soon... so here are some pics i've got... u can see the full llist at my personal pics link... so till next tym... muackz..

2004-07-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

HeYz... was at skool as usual.. and the these abled people came to our skool... interestingly i dun find them disabled at all.. in fact they were much kewler then we r.. ermz... well there's this person by the name of khadijah or something who sits on a wheelchair looking very sick... but in actual fact she is one of the best aritist i've ever seen... her potraits of famous people as well as some perfectly normal person were full of undefined emotions... i mean the details andthe way she expresses her thoughts and her feelings towards the persons itself.. manz... u shud haf looked a lil closer into her drawings... u'd ealise that the emphasise on the eyes were undescribable.. extremely fascinating... the greatest pics eva... haiz... people may look down on the disabled.. but the truth is these abled people are a bunch of people full of emotions and contributions.. onli unable to to express it wif the restrictions of their limbs and facial expression... haiz.. it is sad to see people lyk this.. well anyway... todae was the battle of the band brought to u live by northland.. well seriusly... some bands weren't up to standard... some the wonders wannabe was totali out.. but they tried their best so we shud congratulate them... ermz.. well farhan (my drummer) did great fer his performance.. so congrats dude.. rock on... ermz.. well i've been doing some thinking.. and i realised that life is well pretty much the same in the fairytale.. the more u want it to happen.. the further it is from ur reach... the more u want it to be betta the worst it gets... haf u ever wondered if somedae u'd be given juz one wish granted.. ermz.. well wat will u do wif it... fer me.. ermz.. well we'll skip that since i find it rather boring.. ermz.. i knoe that there's this new feature that enables user to haf colourful words and stuff... but well i'm sticking to the original white becuz i want this blog to be sorta blck and white.. adding a lil dramatic effect... ermz.. well i' feeling bored and sore and i cudnt care less bout some jerks trying to convince me that they're someone they aint.. so fer the kids or peeps hu wants to spank hit punch kill me.. please ask permission from me via sms b4 u do.. ermz.. please sms me fer critisism and harsh vulgaratic words towards me.. i need someone to make me feel bad about myself.. so fer ur info.. my number is accessible thru any of my peeps... cuz its sorta easy to memorise... ermz.. well here's something a lil melodramatic i wrote during MT lesson.. so here goes... How..?? haf i offended u.. why..?? must i go when i noe i'm not ready to.... how..?? can i prove this sincerity... where..? can i lust fer u... sooo sooo suckingly sentimental which i aint.. well anythings betta than MT lesson rite.. wahahakz... u and me dancing the nite away.... yada3.. well dats a song by simple plan i think.. a song entitled one slowdance.. kewl song fer people lyk me.. ermz.. really interesting.. so u gotta listen to it.. ermz... feeling rather sick... so i'm juz gonna chill on my bed... till next tym... tara... longingfer*

2004-07-18T19:02:00.000+08:00

HeYz... well i realised recently that this blog thingy is becoming much useless and boring.. so lets be crazy and talk about something really brainless... ermz. k was at speeh dae rehearsal on sat.. was so kewl being Guard Of Honour this year... kewl ey.. oh wellz... the official event will be this coming saturdae... manz.. i cant wait.. when i got back.. i was supposed to go fer my tuition fllowed fer my usual guitar class... ermz... but i skipped both.. cuz i felt sore and totally drained.. ermz.. well.. will be receiving my i dunno wat from the hueva.. i'm top some subject i'm not sure wat.. oh well.. ermz.. looking ferward to the dae i get my MT O levels results.. that'll be the dae i'm gonna start changing my target... so yar.. ermz.. was browsing thru this MOE thing to find out more info about JCs... ermz.. suprisingly i found NYJC pretty interesting.. ermz.. arggz... okie.. lets skip on this studies thing... well i was supposed to turn up fer a jamming session at SCMS fer some band session.. but i was totally feeling lousy so i stayed home and did practically nothing.... ermz... well this coming wee wud be Arts Week... being arty... i've decided to turn up fer Forte 3... trying my best to be there at passion arts.. but i'm not sure whether i cud slot it into my schedule.. ermz.. wellz.. i was watching this arty vid on some play done by some skool i cudnt recall... ermz.. it was rather interesting... altho i dun usually watch such stuff... ermz... recently... lyk a few daes ago i realised that being jerky and idiotic is the kewlest thing to do.. wahahakz.. okie.. lets talk some mature stuff... ermz... i am writing a song fer a fren... its gonna be complete hopefully in a months tym... ermz... its lyk a prezzie fer her b'dae... the song starts lyk this... someone once told me that.... ermz... k thats al i can reveal rite now... ermz.. fer tomorros battle of the band... my band will not be performing... this is due to us not being able to accept the fact that too many rock bands out there... ermz... as the onli jazzrock fussion band around.. its pretty hard to convince people that we r nice... ermz.. oh well... k... ermz.. i was at some beach the other dae... and i sorta stared at the stars and wondered why so many people wud refer to stars as something so romantic... very much recently i realised that stars are actually something thats soo soo well kewl... ermz.. i've never thot that juz by looking at the stars... it wud make me feel betta... ermz.. wat if stars represent daes... and as the stars begin to disappear one by one.. leaving behind juz one.. which will soon perish.. u take it.. put it in the safe... adding fuel to it to keep it burning... not wanting it to extinguish... well thats juz like us... we'll onli cherish something when we knoe its the last.. so fer u peepz out there... please cherish me.. wahahakz... ermz... k.. juz in case i die somedae... bury me beside yusof isyak.. and make a statue of me rite beside raffles yar... ermz.. well.. dun sell my guitar away.. let it rot wif me.. wahahakz... ermz... well i've been too serius these daes... so i'd lyk everyone to loosen up wif me.. how bout u peeps try this out... go to the mirror... close ur eyes.. imagine that u r entering a new realm... now put ur hand ferward.... a feel the texture of that shiny slippery smooth surface... now... move ur head closer to the mirror.. until ur head touches its surface... n0w.. repeat it but do it a lil faster... and faster till ur head hurts and mirror starts to crack.. wahahakz... lamez.. oh well... i've got nothing betta to do... ermz... dun remind me of homework.. please. whahaakz... okie.. well a simple quote fer all of u... miracles are uncommon... so u thank gawd if u eva get one.. cuz it wud take a miracle fer u to get a miracle.... wahahakz.. ermz.. welchz... i'd be back in skool tmr... and i'd try to be as crazy as eva... so fer fun and laughter.. punch me... wahhaa.z. kidding....kk... gotta sign off now... gonna miss every single one of u... [esp chix].. wahahakz... love ya lots.... till bits and pieces.. till next tym kids... enjoy urselves... fun at skool... wahahakz... tara... rottingz*

2004-07-14T19:42:00.000+08:00

ErMz.. well.. most of u mite haf realised that my ToM- has changed to tOm_... so yar.. there's a reason behind it but i'd keep it to myself fer the tym being.. ermz.. well in skool todae.. we had northland idol fer the third tym... kewl ehz.. well todae the judges were much betta.. fuhz.. if not fionx gonna flare manz.. but todae's participants are extremely kewl.. enjoyed myself totali.. ermz.. well.. we had our weekly assembly.. had this dance thingy by some international dance troupe.. calling the performance something geometry which was okie i guess.. i mean i di feel the emotions being potreyed.. and i sorta enjoyed the really kewl moves.. but seriusly.. the director person kept blabbering nonsense which spoilt the whole show.. ermz.. wellz.. i'd prefer drama, play or juz music.. but dance is well kewl too i guess.. ermz. gotta think art in this arty skool.. haiz.. ermz.. okie.. i need help.. i'm helping this guy and we sorta go to concerts and write covers on the concert.. so yar.. ermz.. i need people to inform me of any type of concerts.. date..?? place. skool.. i'll check my schedule b4 i decide to go.. ermz.. well.. i dun haf much to sae.. i'm dissapointed.. about stuff.. and peeps.. bout that enrty i wrote about love and stuff.. i take it back.. because love truly hurts.. dun hafta do research.. juz experienced it.. til next tym.. so heres a pic of me and my cuzzy... enjoyz... tara... dotz*

2004-07-12T18:03:00.000+08:00

HeYz... oh well.. i've been feeling terrible these few daes.. been a week plus... went to doctor and stuff.. but i'm still so sick.. haiz... and my body.. well it feels extremely weak.. i mean i've never felt so sick in my entire 16 years of living.. arggz.. ermz.. well.. i'm practically oozing wif nasty thing from my nose.. ermz.. my eyes are horrifyingly red... and i practically look like a zombi.. i'm pretty much lifeless these daes.. arggz.. and i've got this weird feeling i'm not gonna.... ermz.. lets not talk about that yet... ermz.. i was feeling fine a few daes ago.. but some how i'm back to my sick self.. arggz.. supersized irritatingly gigantous freakingly hate this.. arggz.. oh well.. guess i hafta endure a lil longer... ermz.. have u felt so terrible that u dun think u're gonna well continue.. as in.. arggz.. i mean.. i feel so lifeless.. oh well.. ermz.. was at Add math class.. felt extremely aggitated when Mrs Lam started to increase her pitch.. and volume.. and she was right beside me.. manz.. my ears hurt... and i felt worst... thot of taking panadol from my locker... but i was worried it might affect my vaccine thingy i'd be taking tonite... arggz.. so i'm practically staring at my screen trying to make myself feel betta when i knoe i dun.. arggz.. they had northland idol thingy during recess.. was kinda kewl to haf lyk our skool kids to perform and stuff.. but i totatlly go against the judges.. they simply criticised everyone of them... come on.. they probably think being simon all three at the same tym is kewl.. i mean one simon wud be kewl but all three wud be ridiculous.. i mean take the judges.. dress them in skool uniform.. give them a mike.. and sing in from of hundred kids hu are trying their best to be supportive.. i dun think the judges wud be kewl or un-nervous if they were in the participants shoe.. arggz.. simply ridiculous.. i mean th participants todae weren't that bad at all.. in fact i was enjoying the songs evenm thou i may not get to hear it rite... oh well.. feel so sick thinking about it.. ermz.. as most of u knoe next weeks arts week fer us.. ermz. so many things lined up fer us.. oh well.. ermz.. looking forward to FoRtE 3... i mean i prefer the choir to perform but the bands not bad too aite.. i stumbled across this blog.. owned by well some jerk.. u gotta see this.. its extremely disgusting.. he is actually a guy.. but he is sooo well.. broken joints kind.. like totally gayish.. so for fun and laughter i'm gonna add a new column on my right end of my blog.. wif webby that i find rather interesting.. about this guy i mean gay... i wud like to emphasize on the pictures... rather well.. rather amusing.. so for fun and laughter.. u gotta check it out.. fer people hu understand malay please read the blog itself.. but the pics wud be asa interesting.. so fer the record... u gotta see this.. okie.. i'd end here.. before my head starts to crack and i go nutz.. but people juz in case i dun make it to arts week.. please2 remember me... u can do that by making me my own statue or something.. wahahakz... till next tym if there is a chance... tara... terriblysick*

2004-07-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

HeYz... oh well.. was out watching spidey yesterdae.. kewl movie.. touching bits i'd never forget.. i definitely had the tym of my life.. so i guess it was worth watching.. ermz.. oh well.. was out wif this fren.. hu's a gal.. ermz.. nothing serius.. but we were juz having this conversation bout her and her boyfren.. bout them fighting.. so i asked her why did they fight in the first place.. love is not about fighting.. then she asked me wif a really unkewl face... and she said.. "wat'd u knoe about lurv?".. as in she was lyk so sarcastic.. arggz.. i didnt sae anything.. i was downright speechless.. totally.. so i stood there.. asking myself.. the very same question.. so todae.. i'm gonna prove to her that i knoe a lil bout wat the call lurv.. well.. so here goes... love is something we cherish.. something we have in us.. wif love people live.. wif love people haf hopes... wif love people are born.. and wif love itself people perish... there is a difference between love and lust.. love is wat they sae a a bridge build wif a strong foundation.. fer that.. it takes at least a year.. that was wat i found out on the net.. ehemz.. did my research.. most of us.. teenagers.. experience wat we cal lust.. lust fer something nice.. or new... curious to knoe wat it feels like.. and things like that.. to sae that u love someone.. u hafta be strong in wat u sae.. firm.. firm.. and stand ground on wat u sae.. i was born wif love... brought up wif lots of it too.. but i knoe that somedae.. wif love itself.. i'd die.. some people sae.. i can survive wif love. no water or food. well thats ridiculous.. i knoe its how they put things.. but give them tym.. they'll simply choose water over love.. but i wudnt deny that if the foundation of love is strong.. well that can actually happen.. lyk romeo and juliet.. death fer love.. and my parents fer example.. wif a strong foundation.. the love and cherish each other... my definition of love is 'a feeling deep inside that does not need to be expressed but yet it can be felt..' was wif this gal years back.. i thot it was love.. but i guess i mistook lust fer love.. i've never loved a gal as in a relationship.. frenship yes. but having a galfren whom i sincerely love.. nope.. but frens hu i truly love yes.. parents too.. but recently i cherished this thing people call love.. this thing i learnt not thru textbooks but from all the love i get and i feel from the people around me.. i knoe now that love is a beautiful thing.. ermz.. u may be wondering why i'm so ermz.. well so into this sentimental thing.. well the truth is... i'm on medication.. *may cause drowsiness*... juz got back from the clinic.. damn effing sick. manz.. feel so lousy.. so yar.. wont be going skool tmr... cuz i cant stand this headache i've got.. arggz.. oh well.. a lil quote fer all of u.. a simple love cud lead to many miracles.. a simple love too cud bring one to his death... till next tym kiddo... *muackz*

2004-06-27T18:03:00.000+08:00

HeYz.. feeling very well high todae.. was laughing giggling at practically nothing.. man i'm nutz.. oh well.. ermz.. its my parents 17th wedding anniversary.. aint that sweet.. manz.. true love never ends eh.. well this entry is a tribute to them.. long live mom and dad.. kewlest couple ever.. wee.. love them so much.. haiz.. but i really miss my grandma.. was her 100th dae death anniversary a few daes ago.. cant imagine life without them all.. haiz.. well.. grandmas gone.. leaving me here on my own.. haiz.. sobz.. so sad.. ermz.. ermz.. well love is a beautiful thing aint it.. haiz.. how i wish i cud love.. haiz.. ermz... well i haf forgotten how to love and stuff like that.. i mean.. haiz.. been a while ince i got into all this stuff.. haiz.. how i wish i cud love.. ermz.. oh well... i lead a simple life.. aint got no car.. aint got losta cash.. aint got great brains.. but hey.. wat do i haf.. well.. i dunno myself... got a weird sense of humour.. got a whole load of crap when i feel high.. wahahakz.. nothing to do wif alcohol drug or cigarettes.. wahahakz.. free from all those things.. free dude.. wahahakz.. ermz.. back to my parents.. i guess they're simply the kewlest couple.. romantic... fun.. kewl.. i mean.. i can practically hang out wif them.. like the same way i hang wif my frens.. weird...?? well thats my dad and momzy... kewlest pair ever.. manz.. love them lots.. weehee.. well.. was doing my "intensive homeworking" juz now.. found out that i cudnt do this on my own.. arggz.. wif my full blast songs.. and my really stupid pen.. i went on doing it onli to find myself stuck at so many questions... i cud count how many i did rite.. wahahakz.. haiz.. i dun wana be told to grow up... i dun wanna change.. no gonna.. ever.. wahahakz.. lame... this is hu i am.. wahahakz.. lame.. its a song people.. wahahakz.. anywayz.. having crushes... stupid ones.. i mean.. it not stupid.. juz not possible.. anyway.. its a dream world.. so i can dream about it as long as i live.. wee.. ermz.. oh well.. a fairytale story wif a fairytale ending.. vacations over kids.. back to skool.. wee.. love northland sooo much.. gonna miss those memories... haiz... tara.. dotz*

2004-06-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

heYz.. was out again todae.... HW...?? well burnt it.. wahahakz.. nahz.. i'm on it... u see i was planning not to do it at all when a fren of mine simply said that she's bz doin HW altho she's got a tite schedule.. i mean.. that really did opened up my eyes.. i mean.. i promise to at least give it a try.. wahahakz.. still as lazy as ever... ermz.. was at well.. i cant remember where but i was out and about.. doin stuff.. like.. well cant recall.. practically i'd stone anywhere i go eh.. so yar.. ermz.. think i went to peninsula or something.. saw some concept-ish people... guess they're kewl to a certain extent ehz.. found out there's a jamming studio there... thats first fer me.. ermz.. well.. i'm feeling very dissapointed bout some stuff.. i dun really talk much these daes.. haiz.. lydia sms-ed me bout it.. i mean even she knows about it now.. so yar.. she was terribly dissapointed too... i mean.. haiz.. anyone will feel the same when they encounter this kinda things.. well. was stoning at esplanade the other tym.. i mean thats where i usually sit stone and sometyms write songs... i mean i'd usually forget the lyrics the moment i reach home but at least i feel free.. wateva.. so yar.. ermz.. was doing juz that when i got this really silly idea.. its about me going to some 3rd world country to help the needy people there.. as in humanitarian aid and stuff lyk that.. kewl yeah.. well.. planning to go to cambodia and stuff.. i mean i'm not rich or anything lyk that but i believe i'd make a difference.. wahahakz.. i mean i'll try to get sponsors fer this trip.. wif air tickets and stuff... but i'd be sure to bring along lots of chocs and sweets.. manz.. i mean i realli hope to bring something here that'll create an anchor.. i'm pretty sure most of them haf never seen chocs and stuff.. people here simply take it fer granted... i mean i appreciate every part of the choc even if its bitter.. manz.. i'm so excited.. wahahakz.. k.. seriusly.. i really wanna go fer this trip.. k we'll skip that... ermz.. well... ermz.. k.... bout my taggy.. seems that the oren guy is back to bug me.. so yar.. welcum back bugger... ermz.. well.. as u can see i displayed my advisory card down there... well.. thats wat i've been wearing fer the past year whenever i hold meetings or lecture stuff.. ermz.. wrong word.. should be workshops.. ermz. well.. i'm gonna really miss wearing that thing.. last worn during choral fest... wore it wif my blazer.. well thats the last tym i wore it.. so yar.. haiz.. skool's reopens pretty soon eh.. well.. its tym fer serius stuff.. melv decided that he'll aim to be top student.. well.. i'd be glad if i can qualify fer a gud JC... a poly will do too.. wahahakz.. pathetic eh.. but i guess i'll work towards something ehz.. haf u ever wondered why i got so many things to talk about.. well.. i'm not sure why myself.. everytym i start wif something.. i'd end up wif something more.. how i wish i cud do that wif my grades.. wahahakz.. starting my nonsene again.. k. fer the dunno how many tyms.. well.. i'm gonna change my blogskin.. wahahakz.. i dunno.. juz cant bear to part wif the current style.. lyk reflects my personality.. wahhakz.. nahz.. i'm practically a guy hu abides the skool rules.. i make my rules... but hey i follow them.. wahahakz.. told u thats the end of my eh.. wahahakz.. k.. now its the end of this entry.. so till next tym.. live life and prosper.. the truth hurts.. well.. thats true and it hurts doenst it.. wahahakz.. tara.. dotz*

2004-06-25T20:08:00.000+08:00

HerEs My SkOoL AdViSoRy CaRd...!! So ThAts The LaSt Of Me... So sAd... GueSs ItS TyM To PuT DiS AwAy YaR... HaIz.. sobz*

2004-06-23T18:50:00.000+08:00

HeYz.. ermz.. back from camp sleepless.. arggz.. wahahakz.. k ler.. juz came back from leaders camp 04... ermz.. well.. we had like a few external agencies to like talk to us about stuff... which wasn't up to my expectations... seriusly it was uninteresting.. the whiz thing was okie.. but the Motivational Insights was well not satisfactory.. i practically stoned my way for the first dae... like really stoning... ermz.. then when all the activities were over, i thot its time to go to sleep... at 2.. arggz.. but i was asked to sit in for a debriefing session since i'm camp advisor... ermz.. like seriusly most of them were talking nonsense... and i felt extremely high... arggz... seriusly... so it ended quite late since they blabbered one at a time.. arggz.. torture.. so yar... slept like fer a few hours... woke up feeling really stoned... took a shower... then continue on wif the activities... which was as boring as the dae b4 and we actually told her off into her face... like seriusly... we were so pissed... i mean it was not onli uninteresting... i cant get anything out of it... haiz... ermz... so yar... ermz.. ermZ.... we sorta skipped that stupid NDP thing on the second dae... feels great... ermz.. had BBQ that nite.. had a blast.. ate like so much food... i'm not sure wat i ate.. ermz.. i actually ate cold fishball.. i mean thats like okie compared to this guy hu picked up two fishballs which is cooked but is on the road... then he washed it with water and soap.. and ate it... eeeiiwww... yuckhs... ermz... then we had this Mr mani thing... ddnt pay attention cuz i was too worried to... ermz.. khairul sorta had a i dunno wat.. they said he didnt eat but i mean he was acting so strangely... he was like clenching his fist with lots of energy.. tried to help.. so i tried to un-clench it juz to try to break the anchor... but his grip got really hard... arggz... it hurts but i mean i was so worried it didnt matter... ermz.. seriusly... i was like soo damn worried bout him... i mean he is one of my closest frens... arggz.. haiz.. then like he was so weak after he slightly recovered... so yar... i was by his side... trying my best to comfort him.. haiz... then he was okie... like very weak but he was able to walk and stuff... ermz.. ermz.. had to continue running the elections nite even tho i was extremely worried... ermz.. so yar... it was okie... that was the time i handed over most of my duties and responsibilities to my successor... ermz.. glad its Kim Choo.. cuz she's from my house and i mean she's practicAlly like me.. very noisy... so yar... ermz... i mean i'm glad that they elected someone i trust... fuhz... relieve... ermz.. lead my last pledge as Welfare Officer of the Student Leaders Board and HOE of the SLB... pledged as a non-active Head of Ethics of the Prefectorial board... so yar... it was so touching... like i mean i was giving my speech and stuff.. then like i felt so sad... my voice started to like change... very shaky... but i still kept my kewl... haiz.. i was so sad and touched at the same time.. i mean i've never felt so appreciated b4... haiz.. i'm gonna miss the Leaders board... ermz.. then i made the announcement of a new committee called Joint Advisory Comm.. which is actually my idea.. i mean the principal supports the idea.. i mean.. i was so touched... so yar... so i'm leaving my contributions.. ermz.. i hope the new JAC wud not forget me as the founder... haiz... well anyway... went to bed late again but i skipped the debriefing cuz i felt extremely tired... ermz.. woke up feeling sore and headed fer East Coast park... fer some events... haiz.. its been a while since i last became a camp participant... i mean i've been camp OIC and sub ICs... fer the past year.. and i juz forgot how not stressful it is to be juz a participant... altho i'm camp advisor... i mean i felt really free... so yar.. had a blast too.. haiz.. then well... when we went back home i found out something really shocking.. haiz.. i mean... i never thot that one of my closest would turn to something like dat.. haiz.. really dun feel like talking bout it.. ermz.. i juz want him to knoe that i dun want it to spoil him...and i really treasure this friendship and please dun make that thing spoil this frenship... haiz... no use saying this.. i knoe.. but... i also knoe that.. haiz... i'm too dissapointed to talk about it.. so i'm gonna end this here... haiz*

2004-06-16T20:32:00.000+08:00

HeYz.. ermz.. well juz got back from NCC spec course phase 2 2004 first dae... feeling sore and extremely drained of energy.. u knoe was at that lecture thing again yesterdae.. was once again kewl.. like really had fun.. ermz.. then afta the thing i went to this BBQ function by AVA and choir... like fer fun... actually i had to discuss a few things wif the choir head.. so yar... ermz.. about this elections thing.. like i soo free.. wateva lahz.. feeling sick.. so yar.. and i had like kids serving me stuff.. wahahakz... then mrs lam was like yazid dun abuse ur powers... wahahakz... wat did i do.. anyway she was in that good mood so ya... i was like smiling all the wae.. then me fiona sam and jocelyn sat and talked about really kewl stuff.. i was feeling really crazy that dae and i was like talking about myself looking in the mirror telling myself that i need a plastic surgery and stuff.. wahahakz.. and i was like blabbering bout me loving myself.. like as in the girlish side of me.. wahahakz.. since i didnt wanna be gay... understand.. like very confusing rite... wahahakz.. okie.. its like this.. guys shud never sae they love themselves... becuz it will onli mean that they are gay... so instead they shud love the girlish side of them to be straight... get it... arggz.. lame... so yar.. ermz.. was back quite late cuz i was like walking aimlessly afta i left skool... not knowing where to go.. like as if i was lost fer the very first time.. haiz... ermz.. anyway i feel very much like a devil yesterdae... this morn.. i woke up like really early in order to be on tym to skool.. but i waited fer the bus like fer close to half an hour... and guess wat.. the driver actually spent close to 10 mins juz chilling at the interchange... like... i spent an hour juz to reach skool.. and the ironic thing is i live juz on the other side of this place.. like.. if i walk it will take me like 20 to 30 mins... arggz... this sucks.... well thats my life.. actually i got so many things to share but i feel really sleepy afta the really long dae at camp... haiz.. so ya.. ermz.. was at the camp.. helped out wif the food and all... and we did like a million stupid and brainless things.. and ya... and we're probably the most pathetic batch of people cuz we didnt even haf like a stirrer... arggz... so be creative... anyway... took the tonner... and the van thing... had fun ya.. and wif the rifles and stuff.. manz.. had a blast... altho i feel that i'd make a betta PS... wahahakz... kidding.. ermz... well.. the camp was ran smoothly.. its onli the first dae so cant really comment anything... i learnt so many things todae.. i'm not sure i can remember anything.. wahahakz.. ermz.. okie.. time to share some facts wif ya.. k.. do u knoe that hitler is actually a jew... yes... and he was like killing jews... arggz. wats wif that hilther dude... anywayz.. did u knoe that hitler is a gay and is a child hu lacked of love... well now u noe... wahahakz.. thats awfully aimless... okie.. wanna hear something really dramatic.. ermz.. nevermind... ermz... well i was told about this gal hu is with this other gal.. like okie.. its really complicated and stuff... so dat started the convy bout gays les butch and stuff like dat.. ermz.. well.. is it wrong.. to me yes.. its such a waste... to see gals like u knoe.. i mean.. the are more guys than gals rite.. so why wud they wanna u knoe be something they aint.. okie.. lemme ask u something.. wats the diff between a butch and a guy... ehemz.. i dun feel like answering that but seriusly... wat is really going on in this world... people killed in mass murder everydae... people die of hunger.. people become someone they aint... people changing how the look wif plastic surgery and stuff... i mean.. why must all this stuff exist.. why...?? becuz mankind is more advanced.. well... thats an excuse not a reason... u see... i'm pretty sure life wud be kewler back then when the relied so much on other things but technology... but.. the thing is.. i'm using technology itself to actually type this.. so yar.. i;m into this too.. arggz.. well.. i had a dream last nite bout me being a psychologist... well.. pretty sure i'd do a great job since i'd blend in pretty well yar... wahahakz... k people.. tips of the dae... wen u feel realy stressed up and bored and stuff... lie on ur bed... laugh ur lungs out... at pratically nothing... i mean u will look crazy but seriusly it helps.. wahahakz.. one more thing b4 i leave... i've got this prob wif NCC gals... well women sae that they are discriminated whenguys say that they are weak.. i believe that they are strong.. i mean its a fact that they haf their strong points.. but why must ncc gals shout wif a really deep voice lik a guy.. u see by doing this they are degrading themselves by saying that they must follow the guys voice and stuff to be strong and to vbe a great leader.. we knoe thats not true.. but haiz.. the practice goes on.. and i feel sad that gals are discriminated this way... i guess thats wat they chose... ermz.. feeling sore and sleepy... gotta sleep... arggz.. its calling me.. my bed arggz... tara... ending this wif dotz*

2004-06-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

HeYz.. well.. i knoe i juz wrote in yesterdae but there are so many things i wanna talk about... so many things i totally gotta share.. ermz.. where shud i start.. oh well.. yesterdae.. was out.. doing stuff.. at the beach.. then this lil kid was like approaching me wif a kite.. so well i decided to give it a try... knowing it was stupid i tried it anyway... and the stupidest thing is i knew there weren't any wind so i ran wif the kite refusing to fly.. arggz.. but it was kewl to actually be stupid at times.. wahahakz.. ermz.. we reached home like really late.. ermz. so yar.. slept like soo late... cudn't wake up todae.. haiz.. but i was on tym fer the lecture thing anywayz.. ermz.. well. at the lecture thing.. we learnt like really kewl stuff.. like being confused is good and sex is part of how u remember things.. was hilarious.. had hell of a great tym.... so we were like sitting there trying to look awake.. when they started to be horny.. wahahakz.. gotta look at those expressions.. so full of well really kiddy stuff... wahahakz.. so awfully dramatic... hey u knoe wat.. was watching kids central or something... no.. ermz.. cant recall.. kie.. think its some video thing from my cuzzy.. it was this drama thing.. as in really drama wif like few people on stage doing their stuff.. like full of emotions... and like they were soo kewl trying to do stuff.. like ignoring the audience.. manz.. well it was really a weird experience but actually a pleasant one.. never thot i'd even come close to liking it.. anyway i enjoyed the whole thing.. so yar.. drama.. me.. doesn't really give a lil rhythm but yar... ermz... but cant possibly be in drama cuz i'm like so damn dumb... okie enuf of me trying be cultured.. wahahak.. kie.. ermz.. i mentioned bout the confused thing.. well i was really confused..and that the sub-concious.. did i spell that rite.. well it is a gud tool to well do stuff.. so yar.. ermz.. well..was juz sitting there like staring at the walls.. then i came up wif this tupid idea of being my own boss.. like be an entrepreneur.. wif a fine dining restaurant.. wif a lil personal touch and really comfy environment... manz.. i drool juz thinking of it.. seriusly... not there to earn big bucks.. but juz to get the satisfaction of being successful.. well.. dun i sound like a well.. really ermz.. kewl.. wahahakz.. nahz.. think i sound like some lunatic trying to look normal.. i am soo full of emotions.. i can like write a really long essay entitled... ME.. arggz.. no it shud be a biography... wahahakz.. i'm effing energized todae... ermz... i'm suffering from this really painful piercing sensation in my calf... ermz.. think i was working out too much.. wahahakz.. actually i was like jumping around the other dae.. ermz. juz trying to see if it'd make me taller.. wahahakz.. look like an idiot on some springy thing.. ermz.. well.. if u can observe.. i'm typing a whole load of nonsense wif different feelings accompanying it rite.. well thats probably becuz i'm changing half of me.. which means u get to see another side of me.. not a bad thing.. juz something not new but a lil modified.. so yar.. thats probably my left side of the brain is disfunctioning.. wahahakz. lunaticky me.. ermz.. then we were like watching this rocky 3 thing.. which was well okie.. and sylvester was like.. come on and stuff.. and he's voice was like so deep.. found out that he speaks this way becuz his nerves was disrupted when he was born. so sad.. so half of his face cannot function.. so yar.. ermz.. well.. so u learn something new todae.. and well i haf no idea why suddenly this instructor guy was lyk talking bout his experience at katong convent.. then he said they were lyk ermz.. kewl.. but i mean.. they were lyk so open to him.. but i'm pretty sure they are a nice bunch of people... ermz.. so close to st pats.. haf beautiful ladies from CHIJ katong in front of them.. arggz.. wasted.. these are the kind that shud learn to cherish natures beauties.. bla3.. arggz.. now i sound like some botanist guy.. arggz.. crappy stuff.. well.. thats all i've got fer todae.. well.. wil write in once i got new stuff to talk about.. so yar. till next tym.. tara.. dramatised*

2004-06-13T13:14:00.000+08:00

HeYz... well.. was at national stadium doing my stuff... was soo confusing.. had sooo many numbers to memorise... not as if i'm important or anything... haiz.. well.. we were given.. 2 paddle pop chewy jelly ice cream.. 4 loafs of bun.. milo.. ovaltine.. two black soya bean and kfc thing.. arggz... sucky sia.. the food was okie. but a lil too much fer me.. arggz... well.. was visiting my frens blog.. well not exactly a fren but wished i was one.. wahahakz.. well.. some dude or jerk kept bugging her.. like calling her bitch and bimbo and stuff like dat... arggz.. so sickening.. and they wouldnt stop... arggz.. and they were like.. fuck off ToM... arggz.. so irritating.. they dare use fuck on me.. arggz.. so well.. this gal decided to pu her tag board as offline.. haiz.. poor thing.. wanna haf blog also got bunch of effing buggers... like mine.. i'm not popular but this oren person keeps bugging people hu tag my taggy.. arggz.. well anyway enuf of toking bout people hu do not haf respect fer gals.. haiz.. well.. it irritates me juz talking bout these people.. haiz.. oh well.. yesterdae was kewl.. was well happening.. we were like so blur that we didnt realise that its getting dark.. well anyway.. ermz.. ermz.. khairul.. my bassist decided to well.. go fer a gal name jocelyn.. but his got dis thing wif raissa.. he is effing complicated..haiz.. juz let him be.. well.. ermz.. we had this really massive convy.. and i mean really massive.. ermz.. i was very confused myself.. wahahakz.. but it was awesomely fun.. ermz.. well. i reformated my comp.. now its betta but well.. very clean.. all my songs gone.. haiz.. ermz.. ermz.. well.. i've got a daes rest fer todae... ermz. will haf a lecture or something.. think its a course of some sort.. well... ermz.. then on wednesdae.. i'll go fer spec course 2004 as attached spec.. i'll be back everydae but the thing ends on the sat.. ermz.. then i haf a dae rest... that mondae will b the start of leaders camp.. so yar.. very packed schedule.. erm... k. fer ur info peeps.. i'll not be the emcee fer passion arts.. ermz.. there's a reason why ahz.. if u wanna knoe.. ermz.. actually quite irritating.. cuz SOMEONE didnt wanna tell me the date fer the audition thingy... so yar.. ermz.. well.. nevermind lahz.. since people dun want me to be there... haiz... its usually lyk dis.. cuz.. haiz.. hurts me to sae all this shit.. arggz.. we'll skip dat... ermz.. i may or may not turn up fer the thing they call passion arts.. depends on whether i've got mood.. its gonna be very lame anywayz... haiz.. ermz.. i've decided to choose Music drama company fer my NS... that is if i dun qualify fer OCS... ermmz.. since i've got interest in music.. i probably shud do something i enjoy.. so yar... ermz.. will be taking my theory end of this year.. arggz.. cant stand this.. ermz.. mebbe taking prac fer drums ahz.. ermz.. probably gonna sign a contract wif some official jazz band end of this year..that is if i can qualify.. ermz.. will ask Raf to help me.. ermz.. well.. ermz.. will try out TNT recording studio the next tym we jamz.. ermz.. hope its gonna be fun.. ermz.. thinking of selling my fone... if interested please sms me.. ermz.. well.. ermz.. so many life's so boring and dull... so many spices fer us to choose... so many flavours that we can haf.. so many gals from whom u choose.. but love cannot be bought... nor can u put it on discount.. its abstract.. yet it is delicate and very real... i am no jerk hu is well romantic... i am not a romeo.. i dunno much about love.. but i am juz.. well... talking a whole load of crap.. wahahakz.. not being myself todae.. so hapi holidays.. to the kids out there.. hu's in a world of their own.. ermz..build me a statue and call it the guy hu found the fairytale land of jerks.. wahahakz.. k.. tara... smiles*

2004-06-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

HeYz.. its ermz.. wednesdae... well yesterdays tuesdae... tomorrows thursdae... yes... well ermz.. todae is a great dae... me and farhan.. ermz.. we made the greatest discovery ever by any guy.. wahahakz.. we... well its a secret... we found something i'm pretty sure alot of guys are looking fer.. well anywayz.. really proud of it.. rite dude...?? ermz.. was at skool.. training.. its been like close to well.. a month since we last had training.. manz.. it felt gud.. but feeling a lil sore.. ermz.. its was sooo draggy.. lasted like 6 hours... arggz... 6 long hours of nothing but boring stuff.. haiz... but i guess thats the price if we wanna be the best.. yada3.. now i sound like my superiors... arggz... well.. was at the movies the other dae to watch harry potter.. was kinda kewl... altho i'm not realli into it.. ermz.. well next upcoming event wud be passion arts i think.. one of the most important events.. will be having the arts week and the usual performance at VCH.. ermz.. i may be going fer emcce.. but i may not be selected... ermz.. ermz.. well speech dae will also be included in that week.. where i'll ehemz... do stuff.. hu knoes mebbe i'll get my colours awards... ermz.. well... when we peeps went out to watch the movie thingy... we had difficulty looking fer the tickets.. haiz. ermz.. but when we got ourselves the tickets... SOMEONE stole our seats.. but.. we were kewl... anyway its juz a movie rite... singaporeans shud be more fergiving... rite...??? anywayz... ermz.. i'm catching another movie soon.. ermz.. but i need someone to go wif me.. hmmz... wahahakz.. pathetic... wahahakz.. that aint me.. ermz.. k.. i'd like to recommend u to a song by ninedays.... ermz.. song called absolutely or something.. it is absolutely absolute.. wahhakaz.. its really kewl... its about a gal hu cried a river and drowned the whole world cuz she's sad or something.. ermz.. really nice.. ermz.. try to not download cuz its illegal or something.. wahahakz.. nahz.. ermz... i may be changing my mail add again this month... ermz.. so expect something different again.. ermz.. well... someone told me that life's never fair... well if it is then i'll haf a hard time choosing since all the gals are pretty.. wahahakz.. ermz.. i bloody hate guys hu disrespect gals... i hate guys hu criticise others and show it to the world except this people.. i hate the people hu call themselves nice guys when they go around jerking and flirting wif gals and not feel bad about it... we shud not disgrace ourselves dudes of the world... ermz.. please people... respect lurv... lurv if u want to... cuz its perfectly normal... and lurv is not fer fun... please... wahahakz.. wats wif me todae... ermz.. okie.. i'll be doing my sharing session as camp advisor and camp commandant of GEMs camp.. ermz.. there's tons of pics.. but i dun think there's much to sae... ermz... i will probably be stepping down as Head of Ethics of student leaders board... and prefect advisory board.. i will also be stepping down from my current welfare officer post of the SL board during the elections... ermz.. i am effing not myself todae.. ermz.. i'd really like to ermz.. go fer my last skool leaders exchange prog b4 i leave... haiz... So many daes has disappeared.. so many songs has been left unsung.. so many stories never been told.. so many memories... never to be erased... so many babies has been born but many more has yet to be... this is life.. a story... a song... a melody... this is the story of me... THE END... wahahakz.. feeling real high[i dun drink]... wahahakz.. dotz*

2004-06-04T19:54:00.000+08:00

HeYz... ermz... was at the NDP practice yesterdae.. turned out quite okie.. hafta admit dat it was kinda fun.. well.. we did some wushu stuff wif a lil boxing.. we had tons of fun laughing at ourselves.. really... the weather was okie.. new NPCC kids joined us... mostly from Hougang.. and they had a cute IC.. wahahakz... the captain guy said we will be learning bayonet fighting this sat... but I wont be attending cuz I'll be away to malaysia... so yar.. I'll be away for a few daes.. shud be around two to four daes... hafta settle my late grandma stuff there... haiz.. ermz... yesterdae was kewl.. while todae.. is juz plain simple.. was at skool fer like an hour to do English hw or something... I didn't complete it tho.. then I went to the library to read some books and mags b4 I went to the mosque... ermz.. then got back from mosque... switched on this effing computer onli to find it jam fer a few times.. arggz.. so effing irritating.. hmmz.. I'm thinking of catching a movie next week.. still haf not decided wat to watch... supposed to go to KL fer an expedition trip by my club... but I've got remedials to attend.. haiz... wasted... ermz.. saw a few cats juz now.. reminded me of boney... wahahakz.. well.. I tried to help someone wif her problem but I wasn't able to... mebbe its been too long since I last had this things going on... BGR shit... well actually her problem wasn't at all bad.. it wasn't about her boy cuz she aint got any.. but about friends stuff.. sooo confusingly confusing... well... since I'm going away tmr morn... I decided to write an entry b4 I leave... Juz wanna make sure that my friends wont ferget me... wahahakz... ermz.. I wud like to apologize to hazlin fer not being able to attend her sis party.. I'm terribly sorry... fergive me.. ampunzz.. ermz... feeling extremely jerkified... really feel so jerky... haiz... these few daes... I dunno wat to do... I feel bored... To the max.. .. I've also decided to stop.. ermz... stop using G2 pen.. wahahakz.. lamez... ermz.. and khairul... pleeze stop using nicks bout heartbreaking nonsense... cuz there's no such thing as a broken heart... it merely cracked..wahahakz... then Fiona gave a lecture on stupidity..stupid is juz a werd by man to critcise others... yadayadayada... etc. she's like discovery channel on the move.. wahahakz... ermz..khairuddin.. well... he sorta showed us the passion arts tickets.. haiz.. VCH again... nightmare dudez... ermz.. I've promised myself to respect all the gals [esp chix] around me... I will not.. ermz... I will not turn gay.. wahahakz... okie.. enuf of the lame jokes.. gotta go kids... hafta leave early tomorrow... ermz.. will blog when I get back... tara... dotz*

2004-06-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

HeYz... well.. juz finished another round of stealing pics.. so check out the new pics kids... well was bz editing pics... putting two pics together... manz.. it looks so weird... but its confidential so i'm gonna skip that... was at skool fer Amath lesson.. was dry but betta then being at home 24/7.. had this short briefing bout speech dae.. so i guess we'll be the GOH this year yar... thot of going to town juz now to buy some stuff... but was so damn tired... tmr is hazlin's sis party... i wanna go but haf a few problems.. haiz.. wanna party too.. khairul shit didnt wanna go.. why...?? well i dunno... mebbe he is... ehemz... shy... wahhaakz.. lamez.. haiz.. its practically raining rite now.. and i'm home alone.. bored.. sleepy and alone... so i decided to update this stupid thing anyway... the choral fest was well.. kinda okie... had a degree of fun but werk is werk yar... haiz.. then the stupid walkie juz went flat.. damnz.. tym fer a change lahz... it was also raining on that nite... didnt really see chix there... wahahakz.. but khairul was like flirting wif this gal from yishun sec i think... wahahakz... flirt... then khairuddin was doing his usual flirting... [no offence.. true watz..] i didnt flirt... really... but the kids there were soo hard to handle.. especially the lil kids from northland pri... wahahkz.. they were like so noisy with their very naive sense of well hanging out... ermz.. then this kid came up to me and said... i haf the rite to this bla bla bla... manz.. kids telling me that they haf rites... arggz... i'm 16 kiddo... but they were cute.. [this is absolutley not child porn ] wahahakz... haiz.. i reached home close to twelve... manz.. was so spooky... anywayz... haiz... MT O levels... was well.. difficult... haiz... the topic was sooo dry... didnt haf much to write about... so i blabbered bout me riding the jerky pile of metal if two wheels.. selling epok2 and stuff... haiz.. pathetic... i was so out of ideas... dun think i can get a distinction... haiz.. so dorky... then fauzi was like writing a really long essay about i dunno wat... until his booklet was filled wif words... and he finished it juz b4 the guy said put ur pens down... well it'd sound betta wif pants.. lamez.. then juz now during remedial... samuel kept doing stupid jokes... was so unfunny... really.. but he knows dat... then he kept saying look at he camera... lamez.. wahahaz... planning to buy a new fone.. haiz.. but dunno how much it would cost me... well anyway. i want something wif vid and really kewl cam.. haiz.. or mebbe i'd buy a simple mp3 or something... hmmz... i want a girl to go out wif during the holidaes fer a movie or something... wahhaakz... joking.. thats soo pathetic.. that aint me... i can live with or without gals.. see i survived alone fer well close to 2 years... such a feat.. thinking of making my own statue.. right beside raffles.. wahahakz... ermz.. i'm running dry.. so enjoy this lifetime of jerking... and alwaes be jerkified.... thats all kids... lurv ya lots... dotz*

2004-05-25T17:21:00.000+08:00

HeYz... guess wat...!! i passed my freaking eng... wee... not becuz of sympathy... but becuz of calculation error... man i'm sooo glad... fuhz... and i dun hafta go fer the PTC thing.. which gives me the creeps... man.. i'm gay.. i mean happi.... so yar.. and this fri.. we're gonna haf a blast at VCH altho i dunno how its gonna turn out... too much NI[no info] to pedict.... well anyway we haf problems wif the blazers... why..??? well becuz.. i dunno.... if we dun distribute it to everyone single person then there's gonna be a problem... and please lahz... return the stupid red blazers afta use... cuz we r having soo much trouble looking and tracing down these blazers thingy.. arggz... well wateva it is i'm gonna make sure i get myself one... but where de hell am i supposed to look fer shiny black shoes... haiz... well... my L1R5 is way too high... haiz.. which isnt a gud thing... ermz... skip that... well... i'll be wearing red blazer wif white pants...black shoes wif prefect badge and advisory card... i'm not so sure how i'm gonna look like.. but hey hu knoes... i'll probably be going fer SPEC course phase 2 04* this year as attached spec... not so sure how fun its gonna be but there's a high possibility that i'm gonna be S4 [logistics] or the worst Admin... but wateva it is i hope i haf fun... its not gonna be residential... so i can wash my uniform everydae.. fuh... ermz... will be going fer the thing wif syarif farhan and taufix... wee... gonna haf a blast... at camp... sounds lame but yar... blast... well.. i am listening to michael buble rite now... title wat a wonderful world or something... jazzy.. well yar.. weird... very... but i guess its kinda nice... and people u gotta listen to summer 69 by mxpx or bryan adams... but i prefer mxpx.... gotta listen to these songs kids... really kewl... ermz... i'm trying my best to look fer cheap effects so if anyone interested to sell boss distortion..super chorus.. or digital delay... please tag my board wif price and contacts... actually i'm feeling extremely pissed wif some people.. but i aint gonna say names... but i hope they know... lifes a jerk... so am i... we're not having intensive MT tmr... woohoo... that is soo kewl... sick of having MT fer 6 long periods.. staring at the transparency with a lot of difficulty... haiz... and the class.. well.. ehemz... was sooo monotonous... very boring... arggz... sleepiest daes of my life... probably taking my theory grade 5 or so end of this year.. wee... but hafta memorise so many stuff... haiz... so sad... well... i heard so many people calling out fer me i didnt know hu i was talking to.. arggz... i wuz soooo lost.... in my own worl that is... haiz.. well.. will be back soon kids.... so enjoy wats here... wait fer wats not... tara.... dotz*

2004-05-23T16:38:00.000+08:00

HeYz.. lemme see... well.. i failed my MYE eng by ermz.. 2 marks.. so i gotta go fer the PTC thingy... haiz.. feel so terrible... and i've not been updating this blog fer like quite a long time now... well.. promised my friends to update it todae so yar.. here i am... ermz.. went to NDP rehearsal thingy.. manz.. its so damn tiring.. becuz of it i was late fer tuition.. was that close to getting the teacher pissed... ermz... i'm sure i did really badly der my A math... cuz the paper was terrible... nahz. juz not prepared... so yar.. i was out the whole dae yesterdae and was onli back at around 11... we went recce to VCH on fridae... which was kinda kewl... but i find last years passion arts venue was way better... but VCH was kinda okie... the place was... well.. grand but i find it really small... i am now the manpower or S1 for the operations of the event... which means i'm gonna haf lots of fun... and.. i'm probably gonna get the best view from the circle seats.. Prof Ho Peng Kee will be wif us.. but next door at VT... the PM will be there... meaning... road blocks everywhere... arggz... but too bad he wont be witnessing our event... we met Mr Marican who lead ur to the circle seats which was actually not legal as it is still being occupied by NJC peeps... we haf lotsa "no info"... why..??? well becuz its diff to tell wats really gonna happen... so this is gonna be on the spot kinda thing... which is a challenge... wee.. cant wait... but i still hafta go fer the PTC.. damnz... dunno how to explain to my mum... haiz.. well... got myself a photobucket wif lotsa pics of me and my peeps and of curz the tons of stolen pics i stole from u peeps thru msn.. wahahakz... feel sooo great... feel free to take anyone of them cuz its there fer all of ya.. and its free... and there's the url and things like that so u peeps can actually put those pics in ur blog wif ease.... farhan my drummer got himself a blog.. see.. told ya its infectious.... well... was jamming a few daes ago... got a few pics... well... went to penin the other dae to chill... in skool uni... lamez.. but we sorta had fun rite kids...??? ermz... well... we saw a few kids.. probably skins... but well they were like looking at us wif dat 'wats these kids doin here...??' look.. while we were like avoiding dem cuz mao is around... if anything goes wrong wat will ever happen to mao.. probably get raped... hu knoes.. mao is gay ladies and gentlemen... yes gay... wahahakz.. kidding... i aint gay tho.. wahahakz.... no lahz... all gud kids like mao juz shud be appreciated always.... rite mei fang... ermz. well i dunno wats going on between khairuddin and hana but it seems that they're really very close... why..?? well hu knoes... i feel really brainless these daes... eversince.. ermz... nvm... well... todae's sundae... while tmr wud be mondae... followed by tuesday... and so on... which means... lifes a drag... wahahakz.. SOMEONE raped my spongebob.. arggz... she took it out from my bag... wif violence... arggz... okie... till next time kids... hope u haf a dreadful week... tara... dotz*

2004-05-16T18:22:00.000+08:00

HeYz... well... feeling terribly sick... flu and all... ermz... well unhappy bout a few things... dun wanna talk about it cuz it makes me feel worst... i juz feel like puking... puking at the faces of the bastards[dun wanna mention names] who are... arggz... getting on my nerves... and these daes.. i feel really.... ermz... pissed... ok wateva... it hurts me when i talk about those people... and stop showing that 'get out of here' face... cuz u get out of these effing place... and stop showing me ur effing attitude... arggz... dun wanna talk about it... wuz having class last nite till about 10 or 9... i was soo drained i had a hard time waking up... was at my gutar club the whole tym... jamming wif my shifu... kewl... how i wish people wud appreciate my band as in DJB... dun hafta hate us juz becuz of stuff... fer the battle of the band... well.. dunno if we're taking part... cuz i juz dun wanna see... arggz.. ferget it... i'm gonna make sure i take my theory end of this year or next year... then start performing... dream destination ESPLANADE.. if i were to perform there somedae... then... i'm gonna shut those bloody effers.. turn them upside down.. and leave them wif 2 cents at pulau ubin... see if they can ever survive.. or juz hit them wif my bloody guitar... darnz... i lurv my guitar... we r gonna be different... wait and see... we're r gonna be... well... jazzy... but nice... dun ever look down on me.... cuz i'm small.. dun look down on me cuz i play jazz... cuz i'm gonna make a comeback... i wuz nerdy... but aint one now... why...??? well... cuz i knoe people look down on nerds... wahahakz. lamez... now when i'm normally nice.. friendly... and unnerdy...never stab me behind my back.. cuz its not gonna penetrate anywayz... so dun waste ur tym... arggz... this blog entry is a tribute the an effer.. onli one effer... dotz*

2004-05-14T16:44:00.000+08:00

HeYz.. its been a whole looong week of exams.. arggz.... my brain hurts... well.. the papers were... ermz.... i dunno... cuz i didnt knoe lotsa questions... ferget it... haiz.. worthless... well.. ermz... this week was a nightmare... the few weeks i put in effort to flip the thick filthy pages of mah books...ermz... i bought myself a fender squier strat 90's from a kewl guy by the name of mike... got myself a samick amp with built in effect.. ac/dc... yes i'm satisfied... thanks mike.... ermz well.. i'd like to thank my peeps fer giving me hope to carry on altho i hate ur boring lectures and 'motivational stuff'.. who knoes watcha talking about... seriusly i dunno wats going on among my peeps... haiz.. well haiz... been really down afta the stupid A math paper... haiz... i went to harbour front a few days back... and we went to the ermz.. food court or something... well.. the food was awesome... i tasted the western from WOW shop or something... i tried the medium rare... fabulous... tender to the max... shud try it peeps... ermz.... well i made a bet wif nadine.. she said she's aiming fer 6 fer her L1R5.. so we'll see... i dun ask fer much lahz... but the deal is on... ermz... gonna be a lil crazy... to give motivation to my peeps... anyone interested to play along needs to sms me with their deal.. i will decide if the deal is on... there will be a treat by me if the deal is fulfilled... wee... so hu dares wins... ermz.. ermz.... well... reali dunno wat to sae... please juz dun play wif me my paper heart will bleed... wee.. well i also got myself a sponboobies squarepantyhose plush toy... wahahakz... k k... its spongebob squarepants... haiz... ermz... probably going jamming this coming week... ermz.. i heard there's this thing called northland idol...??? hu came up wif that....??? think its brian... ermz.. and choral fest is around the corner... wee... at last... i'm gonna make sure i look good... wahahakz... gonna get myself a walkie... hopefully we can get some... ermz..
realised that there's plenty of ermz... how shud i sae this.. ermz... LEsBiAnz... in skool... haiz.. so sad... there's splenty of dudes around looking fer gals yet people wud prefer to go fer their own sex.. haiz... this is so weird... and this occurs in northland and not some gals skool.... even gals skool gals dun go les... at least i've not seen one... haiz.. so sad... anyway... people... give the guys a chance... see... so many guys single these daes... saddens me... GUYS are worthless bunch of pathetic brains... while gals are not much of a difference.... wahahakz... kidding.. ermz.. i'm banging my head on the walls again trying to ferget memories.. all the summer nites... spent wondering... so many questions asked.. but no one's answering.. haiz... sappy dorky songs.... haiz... reflects.. dorky... sappy... and brainless.... wee...
memories*

2004-05-06T18:00:00.000+08:00

HeYz... well... i'm feeling extremely sick.. wif flu and all... ermz.. tomorrow is th first dae of MYE... but i haf not started any preparations.. well hu cares... ermz... been thinking alot about stuff... and well one of these daes i'd probably give up using the stupid internet shit cuz it hurts... and yes... u haf smashed my ego... congrats ego smasher... thats the little ego i haf got... and u smashed it all.. well.. eff me... screw me.... haiz... well ladies and gentlemen boys and gals... kid of all ages... lesbians... gays... and people hu are interested... I... as my name stated above... wud like to once again... make a public apology to hu eva hu feels that i owe them an apology... feeling extremely lousy... haiz... and hurt... haiz... mao... i appreciate u trying to make me feel hapi and all.. and enuf of the cousellar talk... i am one myself... so u dun hafta worry... i knoe wats rite and wats not... and i knoe that i'd feel satisfied if i continue feeling this way.... why...??? well i dunno... the truth about me is... i'm naive.... i'm a kid... i'm like in my own world... i'm like a kid born in absolute vacuum... yes... a kid... well hey... eff the rules... i make my own... ermz.. wadeva... well i was told that i hafta do a lecture on something... as in lecture instead of the usual presentation... man i'm blank... but i'd do wateva it takes to forget this shit and move on... impossible... well... the lecture's gonna be boring... well thats lecture fer u... but i'm gonna try to spice it a lil... and i'm doing the sharing session fer the OALT's thingy... so hey kids... expect something different from urs truly... well peeps... i saw HER online a couple of times... but her last login that appeared in ihatefridays wud be 64 days... haiz... thats how long i've not been able to talk to her... saw her recently in my oder mail... well hopefully my mail add wont fail me.. cant blame her really... she's probably too bz to talk cuz she's probably studying all the time.. or probably she's got so many guys after her that i dun haf an impact in her life... well blame me fer being sucky at stuff... well.. i'm gonna leave one of these daes... ermz... leave wat..??? well dat depends... well.. if people like me to be serious... then i will be serious all the time.. well... happy...??? i'm gonna change... ermz... i'll try.... well thats it i guess.. a lil something fer u peeps... wats black... small... and sweats alot... ermz... well.. the answer is an ant doing push ups.... lamez... well... anyway this may or may not be my last entry but i promise that i'd update this webby at least once more... to see if i'm leaving this blog... but hopefully not... haiz... life effing sux kids.... life effing sux..... fergive me.. fergive me....

2004-05-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

haiz.. really down... sappy... haiz... so wat happened todae.. well todae's not rite... i saw sharifah online... on my oder mail add which means she blocked ihatefridays... so she really did blocked me... well peeps... never thot it wud hurt me so much but it did.. she was my inspiration to survive SPECIALIST course.. she was my motivation to endure... but i guess.... thats all and i guess it ends there.... haiz... well... painfully hurt... the truth is i know her... from a distance... but my existence... my presence... probably is still unknown... or even unheard... becuz i'm a jerk.. yes.. a jerk... a worthless one.. useless... with no value... wat did i ever do wrong... gawd... help me... juz get me out this mess will ya gawd... haiz... i am soo hating myself... wat did i ever do wrong.... i never thot i'd die alone.. i laugh the loudess who'd haf known.. trace the chord back to the wall.. no wonder it was never plugged in at all.. haiz... i'm feeling soo sick... sick of being me.. so sick of looking at myself in the mirror... so sick of always being hurt.. so sick of writing songs fer people who dun appreciate it... so sick of everything... so sick of being me... haiz... life's a torture... life's a story purposely written to erase this passage from my paper heart... tearing it into bits wetting it urine... buring it with fuel... adding fuel to the fire... slowly... killing me.... killing the kid in me... killing the hope... deleting memories from my mind... slowly.... erasing it... fade away... then gone.. leaving me immobilised... not able to move, talk, smile or even laugh... this words are beginning to not make sense... i am writing a whole load of nonsensical rubbish... becuz my mind is blank.. lost... deleted... all that i cud think of rite now wud be time... becuz onli time...nvm.. its complicated... time is a factor of death.. time is a song unsung... dead... time is a ticking clock... waiting fer me to leave... time.... i wud like to make another public apology to 1sg Sharifah... fergive me... fergive me.. sobz*

2004-04-30T18:48:00.000+08:00

HeYz... so todae's friday.. wee... i lurv fridaes cuz we do so many stupid stuff every fridae... it started raining at around 2 todae.. thats like the time we end our praying session... so yar... its was heavy... no one dared to go out of the mosque... except fer us.. bunch of bastards.. so yar.. we walked out as in really slow... wahahakz... felt so kewl... we did try to seek shelter at the blocks... but it was no use... so yar.. and we walked to interchange.... wee... then we were like walking in a group.. so we sorta like decided to do something stupid.. so we immitated the boyband style like the one in blink 182's vid "all the small things" wahahakz.. and we were like singing the song so loudly people started staring at us... wahahakz.. that was so funny.. then we saw slopes... and we started sliding and doin backslide stuff.. wahahakz... so kewl... our hair was sooo messy... and we were soaking wet... i cud my shirts sticking to my other shirt as in the t shirt inside.. very uncomfortable.. but hu cares... then our mr taufix tried this really steep slope infront of long john... man... the thing's s slippery and he still insisted on sliding down... so we observed him doing it... wahz.. the first half was impressive.. he was sliding wif confidence... like a pro... then... he lost balance and fell on his effing ass and slide on in fer the other half of the stupid drain cover... wahahakz... we cudn't stop laughing... so kewl... wahahakz... then he was like is my ass dirty... wahahakz... obviously.... but i hafta admit that it was very punkrawk... wahahakz.... had the farniest dae.... wee.. am still laughing while typing... wahahakz.. should haf recorded the fall.. wahhaakz... hilarious.... memories*

2004-04-28T17:31:00.000+08:00

WeLL... haf not been doing anything lately but PEOPLE keep bugging me to update my blog.. and SOMEONE dunno wat the hell i'm talking bout in my pass entries... well anyway i'll be keeping this as simple as possible... well i haf plans to actually make a link fer an access to my library of stolen pictures... so those peeps who r interested to see wat i haf as a collection then u gotta be patient... ok so wat did i do todae... ermz.... well nothing much.. juz dat stupid really brainless malay listening compre thingy... then the nonsense innocence or i dunno.. cant get their spelling, went to jam todae... but i've got too much stuff to do so i didnt join them... and my frens kept asking me when i'm gonna change my blog skin.. well i'm probably gonna stick to this until i change my mail add again.... wahahakz... the remedial todae was so-so.. a bit dry but hey wat do u expect... haiz... and mid-years like round the corner... and i've not even touched my books... hw...??? forget it... i handed in my files... probably with missing stuff.. but how'd i know... ermz.... then yesterdae i saw lyzma wif her guy... haiz.. i called her until so sianz... but she didnt hear me.... then the kids in class kept talking bout army, bmt and all the ocs crap.. but wateva it is i hoope i enjoy my NS life... far far away from gals... wahahakz... haiz... really need a holidae.. my minds been really packed wif i dunno wat... and i've been having this minor headaches..... feel so.... and probably we're going to watch a movie this weekend... i dunno why the kids at sec 1 look so stressed... and this kid was flaring at my peeps fer some stupid marks fer some event... then he CRIED.. so childish... get back to primary school arh.. thats where u belong... i'm also doing a punk cover fer my fav stupid childish song called my boney lies over the ocean... totally edited by me... so lotsa diff except the chorus... its punkrawk so expect really it to be fast or at least a lil diff.... gonna make it a tribute to all my crushes... a tribute to my dead cat.... a tribute to my first TGM guitar.... and a tribute to my dearest band.... so DJB.... rock onz... and may we be the best and hopefully we'd reach our goal... so thats it fer todae... will update soon.... buaiz.... dotz*

2004-04-24T20:00:00.000+08:00

wee... todae... me and mah band... [proud of it] jammed fer the ermz... i dunno... we had fun... at the new place.... really... the guitar amp.... guitar.. gadget... mic... fabulous.. but farhan was facing problems with his drums... anyway his parents visited us.. i was soooo paiseh.... well anyway i did haf fun... we played a few songs... dammit.. gsf... wats my age again... that thing u do... all my onli dreams... and JOSIE.... wee... so yar... me and fauzi really lurv the place altho khairul complained bout the crampy room.... cuz ehemz..[look at his size]... wahahakz... so yar... the room was sooo kewl and new... and i look forward to go there again sometime....and obviosuly taufix had fun yar.... cuz he sang fer some of the songs cuz... ehemz... SOMEONE cannot sing... wahahakz.... alot of kids sorta look at us.. soo paiseh... but anyway hu cares... i had fun... but our jamming sessions will onli resume after mid-year... muz study... hopefully we'll be able to be gud enuf to perform end of the year... not really a problem yar.... wahahakz.. we r like the onli jazzrock fusion band around... wee... taufix had fun.... rite..?? wahahakz... so he sang... songs.... even tho he's not our vocalist.... in other words its DJB side band.... feat.Taufix.... wahahakz.... so yar.... taufiq... taufiq...

afta that we went to fill our stomach... wee... the shop is called rasa bestari or something.. seriously there's where u get the best food.. manz... and the uncle's really kind too... we were like eating so much and he was like giving us so many things to eat.. and for free.... man i respect him.... and he looks like a real entrepreneur.. cuz i think he's got two shops... so yar... and i'm gonna publish his add.... so u peeps gotta try the food... its heavenly... especially his fried rice... man its worth it... the flavour.... the juicy chicken... the mixed vegs... the seafood flavour... arggz.... there's no place like this place.... wahahakz... lurv that uncle soo much... as a show of appreciation to his delicious cooking, i put his add on my webby....

then we went to Northpoint to chill... juz fer awhile.... then back home.... got a test tmr.... so i hafta study tonite... haiz.. so sianz... well anyway i'll never forget this dae.... never.... living is soo kewl... dying is much kewler... wahahakz... eff... didnt go fer my guitar class todae... cuz i'm real tired.... a lesson learnt todae... no quotes todae but yar.... be brainless... be a jerk.. a dork.. a bastard... in short.. be me.... wee.... tara.... dotz*

2004-04-22T18:51:00.000+08:00

so heyz... spongebob squarepants... if u peepz lurv calling me dat then fine... but id un look like him rite.,..??? wahahakz... weel anyway this new band in town invited me to be featured in their very first jamming session... they are called the 'PaRaSiTe-X' or something... so yar.. and i decided to bring along my band.... and yeah.... we are nameless... but fer the time being we call ourselves 'dorksjerksbastards' wif the side band not yet named.... so yar... the members of mah band arh... the travis... the one and onli.. FaRhaN.... 4EB NSS.... and our so-so bassist with his really jazzy hairstyle Khairul 4EB Nss.... and our very own second guitarist from our jazz side band... Fauzi 4EA Nss.... but the kewlest.... but not so pro... not so gud looking,... very dumb... the one.... urs truly.... me.... so yar... and so there u haf it... the full side band of DJB... still unnamed... so yar... and so the parasite kids didnt haf enuf players... so i invited a few peeps... including the bassist from ACI... wee... so yes... and we had kids dancing all over.. to the sounds of the jazz songs.... feels like prom nite.... wahahakz... so we wish the parasite-x the best.... gud luck kids... and thanks fer the free jammin sess....

And so todaes a kewl dae... and we played josie... so kewl... and these gals were staring at us... wat... wahhakz... nahz... see us.. smile k.. haiya... and so the dae ended.... but well we haf no training on sat.. so kids dun go to skool... and we probably going fer jamming again this sat.... this time the djb are on their own... wahahakz... and i haf guitar class afta that.. anyway my performance is postponed due to ermz..... technical difficulties... effing sux... the clerk never book fer us the hall.. haiz.... and i hafta do SOP fer lydia... haiya... hospitality also got SOP... haiz...

I wud like to make a public apology to Sharifah fer wateva i haf done wrong... please forgive me.... unblock me please..... please... haiz.. its no use... she effing hates me.... cuz i'm a JERK.... haiz.... and try not to call me spongebob cuz it reminds me of her..... haiz.... so sad... sobz*.... haiz.... and aretha... my tag is kewler than urs.... ;p... wahahakz.... wee... so yar... quote from TaUfIx.... One BoYs GaL Is AnOtHeR BoYs CrUsH.... and thats sometimes true..... and there's another one...... ermz... if i'm not wrong its... gals possess me but they're never mine..... wahahakz... so yar thats from taufix...these are from me... live life by living it lifely.... or... shut ur effing face u effing effer.... thank u soooo very very much..... wee... to the jam.... wahahakz.. dotz*

2004-04-19T20:43:00.000+08:00

otay... stop bugging me to write more... i will.. i wil.. ok here goes.... yesterdae wuz the NCC affirmation ceremony fer the new kids.. wuz bored so i tagged along... really had some fun altho there's nothing much.. but the presentation of the new district colours wuz extremely kewl... and yesh people.. i'm training fer airborne... but still dunno if i wanna sign up.. well anyway wuz ard the indoor stadium fer the ceremony thing.. and we were like walking around the indoor introducing ourselves and getting skool numbers... fer dunno wat networking... so we did... but it wuz kewl to get the experience of meeting new higher ranking people... arggz... as in really high... so yar and we were like.... hey where's cedar...??? haiz... the thing is we went to every part of the indoor stadium but we didnt get to see cedar... but i wasnt bothered arh... as SOMEONE BLOCKED me... sobz*... and i haf no idea why.... well anyway if she visits this blog i'd like to apologize... and i would never do wateva i did which i'm not sure wat.... haiz.. so sad... it hurts... but being hurt is painfully kewl... smilez*

so yar.. i dunno why todae all the teachers kept finding fault... haiz... so sick of everything... and yes people... whether u like it or not... i WILL go fer the passion arts emcee audition... and i hope to really brighten things up.. and yes... i AM the hospitality in command fer choral fest... wee... so VIPs... be prepared to be pampered by ur very own butlers... wee.... so yar.. looking forward fer choral fest... ndp... airborne selection... wahahakz... dun think i can make it... and of course.... passion arts... well prom nite so ex...but i'd probably go lahz... ehemz... must let me perform.... wahahakz...

haiz... wat the eff did i do wrong... haiz... so yar... been telling u peeps dat i'm writing a song... but i still haf not had the time to complete it.. haiz.. be a jerk.. be brainless.. cuz being smart aint kewl... wahahakz.. nahz.. study hard... anyway... jumping from the 59th floor aint kewl.. its stupid... and useless.. and yar when u land... we'll see the brain content.. and we dun expect much cuz its not being used... c'mon... suicide is not the way to end ur life... like Mrs Ooh said.. if u wanna die... u haf to die beautifully.. without all the brain stuff.. out of yar head... :p and haiz... taufiq made a quote or something.. which i find kewl.. but i forgot wat... so i'll put publish it the next time i update....

2004-04-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

Heyz... well todaes a kewl dae fer me as well as a few others... we were doing stupid stuff... well anyway there were a bunch of posers to the jamz... so yar.... jazz...?? well at jamming studio... a bit weird but anyway we had fun.. really kewl... did a few punkrawk stuff.... and well heyz.... the fucking guitar irritates me.. arggz... its really fucking fucked up... really... haiz... wish i had my own so i dun haf to use theirs... haiz... well anyway we were like doing intensive tabbing the dae b4.. so i sorta didnt study fer physics... and i'm expecting to get a one digit mark...

so yeah... physics period again... extremely sleepy but hey i survived the two whole torturous hour.. dunno why i hate physics... we didnt haf remedial.... wee... so damn hapi.. but the workload fer todaes like the holidaes... tons... TONS... haiz... going to the affirmation ceremony this sunday.. so... well hey... chilling out again... and this sat i've got this malay thingy fer N2... so yar... and i am involved in the choral fest... as a... hmmz... think its VIP thingy lahz... so yar... and mebbe i'm going fer the passion arts emcee audition... so heyz... i'd get free tics.... and ermz... i signed up fer the NDP mass display thingy.. dunno wats it about but well i juz signed up.. and mebbe... juz mebbe i'd try out fer airborne.... and earn my own wings... but i still needa go see if my eye sight is still acceptable... wateva it is.. i'd like to try out everything....

ermz... lemme see... fer those peeps interested to join a guitar class well heyz.. my club is opening a new basic guitar course.... every tues... 7.30... so if interested please contact me at my mobile... long live SCCGC.... wee... so yar... enjoying myself... but still.... hafta do my stupid hw... and those peeps involved in SYF... gud luck... long live NCC>..... long live me.... long live the brainless... and the dorks hu haf no life.... wee....

2004-04-08T18:31:00.000+08:00

heyz... otay.... todae wuz okay.. really.... i went to Long John [L.J].. sorta like our HQ... anyway i did stuff... skool stuff... didnt do homework again.... really boring classes... felt sleepy the whole two periods fer physics... argg... ermz... otay... so yar... the usual stuff... well.. some weird kids or something set off the fire alarm... and we were doing physics about the light dependent resistor shit which was sorta linked.. so it was sorta funny at first but later on the class was boring again.... haiz.. dunno why.... mebbe becuz of her mic thingy... so monotonous... arggz... damn irritating.. haiz... well anyway shaiful looked really pissed todae... i haf no idea why... soooo damn scary... and i was like looking at him wif that 'wat did i do wrong' look... and we started our own moga which is sorta too violent... Most Outrageous Group Activity [MOGA].. whoeva say bodoh would be given a really kewl pat on the back which wud hurt fer daes... well thats sooo punkrawk...

Well been listening to songs and singing it out loud at class... and i've been doing stuff wif the guitar... like my new song.. but it aint conmplete yet... haiz... and i really hate gals... wahahakz... i mean some... but i aint gay... juz dat these gals hurt me.. sobz*... been changing my mail adds... so yar i haf plenty... the latest one wud be usedtohatefridays@hotmail.com... formerly ihatefridays@hotmail.com... why...??? cuz u peep keep asking me why i hate fridays... arggz... and to be frank i hate mondaes... thursdays... but anyway friday sounds much kewler... sarip is gonna perform at some gigs but i may not go due to my packed schedule...[ritez...].. well i'd be performing ard my guitar club on june 26 or something... so u peepz hafta come...

Friendster is something dat i dun visit anymore cuz.. well... haiz.. dunno wat to say... my effing life effing sux... welll anywayz.. this blog thingy is sorta kewl but i find mine too plain.. so i'm probably gonna change most of the stuff.... and the effing thing is i dun haf my pic anywhere... arggz... sooo not personal... i'm trying be brainless... yes.. so peepz out there.... do this when u r stressed.... ermz.. laugh out loud at nothing... copied from shahrulbarker.... wahahakz... my friend... really kewl dude... so yar.. and a question fer u to think about... wat wud it feel like to haf ur head knocked wif a hammer.... dotz*..

2004-04-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

Heyz.. Today's my birthdae.. and i really enjoyed myself with stuff.. filled myself wif laughter and brought back the joy of many smiles... my peepz are the greatest... so yar i've turned 16... another year of stress but then again another year of kewl memories wif my kewlest peepz... well for those peepz out there who ain't 16 yet then too bad cuz i thot of asking u out on game of billard... wahahakz... or mebbe clubbing[rite...].. and fer those lil kids who's gonna turn 16 then gud fer ya... fer those who r alredi 16 then why dun we chill someplace... wee.... anyway this b'dae aint the same without my grandma... haiz... miss her sooo much... and life will never be the same.. haiz... anyway this taught me a lil something...that birthdaes represents another year closer to death... haiz... anyway my friends realli did made me laugh the whole dae wif all their nonsense but hey they didnt bash me up.... probably becuz they're afraid.. hahakz... nahz... ermz... i'd like to thank dia and tha for the hugz... or semi hugz.. or wateva.... wahahakz... blagz... so yar this is my new blog... it sux but anyway i did this myself... [ehemz].... so i'm proud of it.... wee... so ya... and thanks to all the peeps who wished me and sang that stupid song.. altho i find it ridiculous, it was sooo touching... wahahakz... so yar... so thats my dae on my b'dae at skool... life's like life's supposed to be...

2004-04-06T17:41:00.000+08:00

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